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Just Another Post
Got busy. Oh well, intentionally became busy.. thinking that I might forget about what I feel if my mind is so occupied.
I got busy but not with games this time. Busy meeting some Ozine friends, busy chatting and meeting people online, and busy looking for things that will help myself financially.
Yep, somehow I'm back to my goal.. financial freedom! harharhar.. but still it will take time.. because of the fact that i don't wanna accept workloads here at home.. It will surely take some time to reach my goal.
I don't really have a lot to post now. and this is the end of this post.
Limited
Do I have to be limited to what I'm supposed to be talking about? Of what I wanted to tell and what I feel about..?
See, I can't really start a post now thinking that I might be saying something which isn't supposed to be seen in here anymore.. dang!
its so hard to be the empath type of person.. there!
Post Before Bedtime
"Things change as we grow older... Feelings, emotions, everything about us. But there are certain things that can never be forgotten nor change. Like how we feel about someone. Maybe for others its easy to just move on and let go. As for me, its a little harder. deattaching yourself from someone who has been a part of your life for years? areyoukiddinme?!?! ofcourse its hard. But I am so trying. And so far I have. i feel like a garter. Running away from something as far as i can, and when i thought i'm far enough, a little tug from the other end and there i go flying back to where i started to run..and then i wake up.. back to reality.. the person isn't there anymore.. just me..trapped in my thoughts..and yes, feelings i used to have..still have."
I bumped on to Camille Prats' blog and saw this on one of her posts.. kinda relating.. but no.. it is relating to the kind of situation that I'm having. I guess these lines are right and I agree mostly on the part when she said that it felt like a garter.. its when you thought you've already gotten over it.. that's also the time that you've been pulled back to where you started feeling it.
there's also some more that caught my attention..
"These 2 people i can not imagine my life without. xxxx xxxxx xxxxxxxxxx and xxxxxxx xxxxxxxx xxxxxxxx. We grew up together. Known each other since grade 2. Bestfriends eversince, more than sisters now. No one can understand me better than these 2 people. They fill out the missing pieces of my life, they answer the questions unanswerable to me. We know each other so well that we finish each other's sentences. Often times we communicate non-verbally and understand what each one is trying to say. Unbelievable it is that its actually possible that one can create an extraordinary bond such as that. They are like machines that fixes me when i'm broken, i run to them to get myself fixed, and i come out whole again. fascinating is it?:) we don't get to see each other that much. But we have this certain bond that keeps us together. Like a long unbreakable string attached to each of us. One tug and we're all there. In one place. Our hearts.:)"
I felt kinda sad. Because we were really moving from places to places when I was still younger.. I haven't got a chance to build up a.. childhood bestfriend.. All I had are those friends which I somehow called bestfriends yet they were only there for just a piece of my lifetime. I mean, yes.. I do value the friendship that I had with them but thinking of just how friendship is.. like someone whom I can run to.. talk to.. to any given time and without hesitations whom I know who knows me well.. I don't think.. I have one.. some of my friends might get offended on this but come on.. let's face it..
Since I'm just starting to make my life stable here.. I think its not yet too late for me to have one right? It might doesn't mean that you must be a childhood friend but as long as you're getting constants updates from each other.. maybe that's it.
Just coming to think of it.. people whom I know that I have updates on what's going on with them.. hmm.. there are just a few of them... O.O Does this makes me unfriendly?!
Well, it goes like this.. If you're a friend, I can tell you anything about me.. my past, present and what on my mind about how I see the future, things like what's up with me, what I'm going through, where I've been and stuffs like that.. when I do this.. I don't really expect for that someone to give reply by telling their own stories.. besides its up to them if its on their personality to speak up about things like that to a person like me. As long as I know they are fine.. I'm good with that.. simple as that.
Anyways.. maybe I'm just missing a lot of friends now.. i felt alone for some time now and all I can tell stories with are these friends from Ozine whom I'm with every time there are bottles needed to be flipped around and here.. this blog.
I almost lost some posts and even this all.. Maybe I had become so selfish for only focusing on what I feel.. If all of my previous posts became so hurting.. I'm just writing this according to what my heart is feeling.. I just want to make things clear.. I'm not writing here to gain sympathy.. I'm doing this to let loose of the heavy emotional loads that I'm having.. but it seemed like things went too loose that people began thinking of who did right and who was wrong. Everything here are just a part of the whole story.. If these posts moved you, it doesn't really mean that I haven't done anything wrong.. the thing is.. I'm like this because of my own fault.. Please.. just let things be.. things will just be fine soon.. in time..
A Lot To Update!
And I've becoming so busy online lately.. (less the $$$ though)
I've been on my FACEBOOK, PLURK, MULTIPLY and I'm also now on TWITTER and somehow visiting my FRIENDSTER again.
I am even now playing two.. yes 2 online games.. Ragnarok and Dragonica! Currently, my Blacksmith on RO is at level 91.. then my Archer on Dragonica at level 18.. I just hope to have a lot of time playing both.. >.<
Oh yeah, I was with the team nomnom pipz last Saturday Night to chill out even though my nose is really running so bad.. It isn't some sign of AH1N1 ok? just some common colds.. We first went to our fave spot for a round then transferred to Watering Hole to use fafa Ken's card! woohooo~! Another thanks for that! Some pics can be viewed on my Multiply, Photo Page.
Got bored on your first days of coming back to school? Have you been wanting to attend again an Anime & Gaming Event like what you've been doing last summer? Thinking of an early break because of the stress that your school and work is giving you?
If you can't wait for the next Ozine Fest to come and if you really want these slow paced months pass by so fast for you to attend Anicon then there's no need for you to rush because July 4 is the day that you've been waiting for!
The cool makers of Ozine Fests and Anicon had come up of another Anime & Gaming Event that will surely catch your full attention!
Yes! Otaku Taiiki! And this is really the place for all Otakus and Gamer Addicts!
If you enjoyed the activities you played on our Matsuri on our previous events, expect it to be double and tripled even more since we are giving you a lot more bigger area for cool and fun activities like you've been into a real Anime Festival!
So if you've got nothing to do on July 4, 2009, Saturday, why not come and feel the fun at SM Megatrade Hall 3 on SM Megamall!
Punta na kayoo! Gimik natin to!! Orayt? XD
So.. Again.. everytime I'm planning to make an update on this blog.. I mean the whole repackaging.. It always takes me a month or even more for the changes to be seen! Right? and now, I was thinking to update this and make a new one for all those online things that's keeping me busy lately..
Somehow I decided to make use of krabi as part of may new domain name.. is www.krabii.net enough? owww.. this really is making me think so much.. And then Dale already used the supposed to be layout of my supposed to be new blog.. wohohoho! I think I really have to do this quick to prevent instances like this again,.. hahahah!
hmmm.. you're expecting for another heart-breaking post? I think I've gotten so enough of those.. though I somehow realized now that the world is so too damn small.. you can't really pick people whom you wanna see, right? yes, it saddened me.. I was actually surprised and shocked to the point that I really don't know what to do.. I couldn't even wear a mask to cover myself up.. I head straight up thinking that I think there's no need for me to be introduced.. I dunno how he's going to be telling her who had I become to his life.. Am I just a friend, an officemate.. an ex-housemate, or his ex-lover.. Or is there still a need for her to know me personally? Damn.. but for the sake of the happiness of the group.. I'll try to be more cooperative to maintain and bring back those happiness that we had before things became so messed up between us.. But hey, its easier said than being done right.. Give me time.. I'm getting this positive thinking again and I just need some time to do this on act.. July -- Pheng's Birthday -- is getting near, and August -- the trip -- is even coming. I don't want to be this someone who's so hard to invite now. I know it'll be hard.. and hurting at the same time.. but.. I don't really wanna loose them now because of all this things right? I wanna go back with them.. And I really have to admit this.. I miss them like hell na.. I miss eating out with them.. going out with them.. darn it.. I don't wanna cry now but its true.. If anyone of you is reading this.. can we go out? Please? Damn.. I mean it.. Let's go out! I'll think about this one again.. sorry..
I hope so
Not that it needs to or it has to.. But I hope it would do..
Oh well, Its just me who's making things hard anyways.. so I think the hoping needs to be paired with the "I have to.." line.. so.. Let's see how things will go on from here..
Anyways, I'll go back to sleep.
What's Next?
The long 3 days for our days off has already reached its end. Tomorrow's gonna be like the usual days of work again. Do I still have to expect something different?
Even though I'm short on my budget, I've decided to buy a replacement for my earphones. Something that will cover my ears to prevent anything that my heart doesn't want to hear anymore. I'll just see to it that my phone's battery doesn't run out of charge on that full 9 hrs of work.
I went out a while ago to buy my meds and some snacks to eat for tonight. On my way home, I decided to drop by at the salon to have my hair done. I dunno if its 2 weeks ago or a month ago when I last went there for a haircut. And the one thing that my friends there noticed in me was the drop that happened to my body. I don't know how to say it but i'm a bit of a chub before. I just can't picture how big my body lost because of not eating anything much plus the thinking a lot and sleeping somehow late before midnight every night. They told me that how I look now doesn't fit me. They even asked if I was hitting the gym because of what they noticed.
Oh well, it shows.. even my body is reacting to what's happening with me. Do I have to resort to taking some vitamins again? I don't think eating will help me now. I only eat to preserve some energy and not to satisfy the taste that the food brings because even my tongue, I think, already gave up on me.
I still can't see what's ahead of me now..
Anyways, thanks to Guild Master Dex for somehow worrying about me and to the rest of the guild members who are on a lot of things right now. I hope to see all of our guildmates again soon!
So there, it started raining again.. I hope to wake up early for tomorrow.. Just wish me luck for this another daily 9 hours for 5 days of this week.
Memories
After what I had on my previous post.. I think, something is really going to change.
I dunno how to assess myself anymore. As I can see it now, I'm still trapped with my past as if everything just happened yesterday which makes the feeling still fresh and I think I am really loosing part of my identity.
I don't know how to act or even face everything now. I know, all of these happenings now are all my fault. Unconsciously, I am making things hard for me which makes me the only one being hurt in the end.
I'm surprised to know that until now, the message that I made last July 7 last year is still saved on my phone. It was the I think the day before I was single again.
Behind that word lies something deeper.
It is something to hold on..
It is something that will make you feel that you're still alive.
It may be hard to start life again..
But this will be the measure of how tough you had become.
An end is just a beginning of something new.
Maybe its time to make a new chapter.."
But look at me now, for almost a year now, had I become any tougher? Had I even started making a new chapter? As clearly as you can see now, answer to both questions is a big NO!
I'm too weak to face the truth and to move forth. Still, deep down I'm expecting.. shocked that things really went like this.. and still hurting..
Now, after being silent to what I really feel.. this is me without the mask. I posted this not to ask for sympathy. Some of you may even think that its too much for me to react over such things that was already been ended long ago. I can't blame you, that's what you think. But you can't also blame me coz none of you understands what I've been going through.
Things can't be reverted back now, I know. But the future for me is still blurry. I'm afraid that I might end up with someone whom I'll just be hurting in the end. I'm afraid that i may not be able to give what's needed on a relationship by then.
I know that I should just have to be happy that things happened. I still can remember the first Red Ribbon Cake that he brought me with these two stuffed toys that we named Churi and Choko and was later on been joined with Cholo. On how he really liked this Mango Cake that he is always buying. The quick kiss on the stairs, on our way to Chowking and while at a tricycle. On how we choose what gifts to give to his pamangkin, ate and his mom. The pair of shoes that he gave me when my shoes wore off. The times when we are playing with Terdy. Doing cross stitches together even though until now I haven't finished my small piece yet. On how he was washing my clothes every weekend that sometimes makes his mood go bad. On how we plan for the next week's expenses even though there's nothing left for us to spend. On how we lend each other's strength in times of having problems. The shirt that he and Terdy gave me on my birthday even though I didn't really noticed right away that it was already hanging in front of me. When we go out to check some Polos on sale. On how he became good on cooking his Adobo. On how he promised me that he will take care of me no matter what. Those warm hugs that he's always ready to offer when there's a lot of tears that I need to cry out. On how he gets mad on things that are at mess and not properly cleaned. The phrase.. "Mi" that I always hear from him and "Di" as I call him. On how we both decided to get a phone on plan. On how the song "More than words" became part of us. The happiness that I felt after that Out of Town trip. On how I say thank you whenever I feel like lazy washing the dishes. On how he has to clean my nails whenever that he does. On how he always want to sleep on the bed on the floor. On how I am feeling secure whenever he's there. On how we eat pancit canton together and the Gardenia bread that is always on stock.
All of these and a lot more that I can still remember.. are not anymore to happen again. That's why I decided to post it here, atleast I can always remember these memories the time when I'm about to forget. Remembering all these can really still make me cry. I hate it but I really have to accept that all these already ended almost a year ago.
Some Effin Post
Maybe they are just really a bunch of so insensitive people!
I can't blame them if they are so damn happy for that person having a very cool love story now but hey.. can you just even give me some piece of your sensitivity or even just that smallest piece of consideration that I AM JUST AROUND THE CORNER?!
I know that its almost been a year but yes, life still sux! and this I think will still continue even more! Sorry if this happened to be my loooongest time of moving on compared to the other relationships that I had.
But can you blame me if this happened to be the case?! I had really been hoping for me not hear such things whenever I'm at the office, but how can I just prevent my ears from hearing and stopping my heart to not absorb all of it!? I know, that may sound selfish. But can you just let me be selfish for just that one thing?!
You know why its hard for me?! Can you really say that people can understand why I'm still like this!? Do you know that what I am feeling now is that like I'm being cursed to see things that will be hurting me a lot?!
Its like, yes I know what happened but please, don't make me remind of it over and over again! Because even those most little things can hurt a lot also!
Things like: Was that all I got compared to what is being given to that other person now?! Just the thought of how he can tell to the world that he's with this girl just make me feel that I didn't deserve something like that. Does this have to be the way how life can tell me that I am only to be given this much? I know that I am still accepting some help from him and I'm thankful yet so ashamed of that but should that mean that I have to feel the pain every time I accept one? Does things have to be so unfair this way!?
Yes, I had been reminded a million times that things between us will not last forever, I remember that. But how I understand that was something like a matter of life and death, that if I die one day, then that's the end of it. Sometimes you can't just take it away from me not to expect much from the person that I love. But how I see it now, now that you can even tell me straight into my face that you don't ever want to loose that girl just make me think that I am so easy to let go! Or was I the one who made it easy for you to go right in and out into my life?!
I am now even thinking of how he can now exert a lot of effort for that girl. I know that we almost lived together for a year, but just for the sake of remembering.. did we even had a time to watch a movie together as us being alone?! As far as I can recall we've been to a cinema but we were there with the whole group.
We went out, had dinner at this kinda fine dining. I was even happy coz he also brought my other two siblings there the second time we went there. That somehow counts but just to think of that whole year and some months, somehow I expected to have even more and not just the usual malling to buy stuff at the supermarket of go window shopping.
I know that these are just so small rants to base from. But this are just the small things that keep on hurting me seeing that he can give a lot of more than just that to a girl and not to me.
I do believe that you did loved me back also and that you don't intend to hurt me because of what's happening but I think I just have to bear with this all, you can continue loving, don't mind me getting hurt.
Maybe things will just be changing from here on depending on how situations will be going. You guys may continue inviting me again and again and again, but don't blame me if you'll get tired of receiving a NO for an answer.
Its still hard for me to accept things, but still I'm hoping for things to get better between the all of us. But for now I think I'm better off alone.
I still have friends that I can go to every night when I feel like I need to drink it all up and I don't give a damn If I go home very drunk.. Maybe time will come that I will be returning to you guys, but that time can only be when you guys already know how to give me those piece of sensitivity that I'm asking.
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Readers:
This is now I think the start of a more personal blog posts.. so.. expect to see some changes on this blog soon.. Hopefully I can bring up some new blog where in you can read some light stuff like me playing online games, and things I've been doing online and stuff so that somehow you can get away from these kinds of so emoish posts that I've been posting here.
Updating Life
I think I'm beginning to feel outdated already. There were a lot of things that I am not doing anymore, one of these are accepting those online jobs.
Having these sidelines became a topic with my office mates.. Well, glad to hear that other than them talking about all those love stories that they are currently having, where in I obviously don't want to mix in, they somehow made a different talk about earning extra.
Yeah, I've been having a hard time now talking to them. Anyways, this is a piece of another story, let's just talk about it later or on my next posts.
They learned that oDesk is giving its providers a lot of bucks just by doing some assignments. I am a member of the site but haven't earned a single cent yet. I just don't want to idea of the hourly basis or the fact that I have to allocate hours for another work while I'm at home.
But things on my head started to change. Yes, my team mates ask me to "hunt" for some team project over oDesk but what really made me think of being active on this kind of field is because of the fact that I'm playing Ragnarok.
Being a merchie/merchant turned blacksmith on the game.. I learned a lot on how to deal with things financially. Since being a merchie requires some financial skills to get rich, I learned that to be rich, you really have to do something about it. I learned that I can do a better way than just the usual leveling up of my character. Why not level my character with those monster that will give me tons of loots so that it would turn out to be hitting 2 birds with one stone. Level up while gathering loots to be rich!
Its just like, I have a steady job, but I shouldn't be satisfied with that alone if I know I can do better. That's why somehow I have to bring back the urge of me to accept little tasks again and to "hunt" some jobs.
I know, I've become idle because of what happened to me back then, and I almost made playing a way of my resentment, to forget and to move on. Somehow, little by little, I want to bring back this kind of me.
I am now preparing some to-do list for me to accomplish before getting back to the online job search. I have to reconstruct this blog, finalize my new site, gather back my links, tell the world that Rashid Online still exist.
By then I think things will run again smoothly, I'm hoping so.
Surveys are not enough
Its already 7:30PM and it seems like I've been so idle today. I got bored and so lazy. This day is just so gloomy. I can't even stay up so long playing RO. And posting another survey on my Multiply doesn't even changed anything. I do surveys on my Multiply when I got really bored. But come on! what's with this day that I am feeling so.. sad.
Just Go & Read On
I got sick again. Well it actually started, I think, yesterday when I got home, I felt uneasy because of the not so ordinary body temp that I was feeling that time. I went to bed and rest for a while, but then my body started to feel weak. I looked for some meds but found no Ingat Tablet. And that was just so bad. I can't get out of the house coz it was raining so hard outside, one thing more that i started to hate also.
Thinking that what I felt will just go down naturally after sleep, I was wrong. I can't even move my body when I first woke up. I still have to move myself slowly just to be able to get up.
So what do you think is happening to me now? Deim..
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Oh well, I think the rain doesn't have any plans of stopping. Every now and then its getting stronger and stronger. Its almost been 3 days straight since it started raining this hard! It could have been fine if its only the water falling, but adding some blast of wind, things are just so worst.
I was supposed to see my doctor yesterday at MegaClinic, but because of this kind of weather, I ended up being at home. Somehow, it saved me from feeling sick outside.
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My phone's memory card is not functioning anymore. Its not even opening up the files. Just another *sigh* for me.. Good thing I got the files their saved on my PC, but.. there's this one pic there that.. haay.. I wasn't been able to have a copy of.. >.>
But still my phone is doing fine. Maybe I'll just replace a new card on it some time soon.
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New domain name, its one thing on my head that I've been thinking for days now. I was thinking of having www.oneveindown.net. But I am still deciding if this will fit the concept of this new site. A site that will cater things that I've been doing online. Since RashidOnline is my personal blog.. OneVeinDown will focus on games that I'm playing, stuffs that I've been doing, and everything else online.
Or should I switch things up? What do you think..?
Haunting
Finally, I happened to clean up the room yesterday after being so idle of not doing the chores yet busy at work and in play on those long 3 weeks. (I think..)
But while doing the cleaning, things just went through my mind again about all those things that happened. I even planned on rearranging sana the double deck, the closet and everything but I only ended up putting back those things to where they were. I could have made the arrangement better but maybe its more convenient if they will just stay the same.
Then there goes this line..
I only made someone better for somebody else..
I remembered this being put on to a status message on YM by someone I know. By someone whom I think had experienced less than the half of what I experienced all this time. And somehow, good for this someone for not experiencing this all. Me, as you know of being kind to friends, Its good that its me in the end. Just be thankful that it wasn't you because you'll never like it the way its been.
Now I was thinking, if things just went through between us so lightly.
I was watching Clannad, Tomoya invited Nagisa for a date, since he thought, they have been together staying under one roof but didn't really had a time exclusively to be "together".
Just the thought really made my jaw drop. I know we have to think about the finances back then but come on! Who doesn't want to go out on a date even if it only means having some walk together, right?
See? even from watching anime dramas, things are always coming back. Well yeah, these anime dramas are quite effective to make my tear flow like a river. It really just are so effective.
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home..
..but where is home? its like..
You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know
Am I being pretty good now on throwing lines? There's more!
You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!
Oh well, these are just some lines that I really loved to post in here.. So there!
But just one thing more..
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
Alright? ^^,
Commencement
I've been thinking.. yes, I've been thinking hard where in I'm not supposed to think that much..
I can say that I've made my life miserable, a mess, and had gone to a path where in everybody doesn't want me to be. I've been astray for almost a month and i think this is enough. I've learned a lot and is trying my best to be better now.
Seemed to be some good news? Somehow thinking positively like this can help too, right?
As what a line says, "Pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice." I don't know if I already had stated this here, if I did, then there it goes again.. I don't want to suffer like that again. This happened to be my loneliest time being alone and I don't want to be like this again.
All I wanna do now is to be on track where in I can be the best that I can be. Life has a lot to offer so might as well live with it and enjoy. Right?
I've been into a lot, from problems, stress, sickness.. maybe now, its time for me to manage everything right. To fix myself and try to be me again.
Sometimes we just have to be alone,
To be able to think about what we really want in life,
To be able to realize what or who will really make us happy.
Sometimes it is only when we start loving ourselves that we are able to realize that real and lasting happiness starts from within ourselves and become even more complete when we share it with someone who truly loves us. =)
-from a text message again..
Taking Chances
And then I will be coming back to work for tomorrow.
and let that be it.
Let's see who's me is going to office by then.
Me & My Stressful Life
Those who are bitter are stronger individuals.
Wanna know why?
Because strong people know how to control their emotions..
and bitter people know when to realize that its enough & its over.
Bitterness is not a totally negative thing..
Its just a way of showing to others that in life..
There is such thing as, "I still love you..
..but I don't want you anymore."
--a text message received from Raiza and it makes sense to me!
Still, I'm being a different me when I'm at the office.. I dunno how to begin things as the way it was before. I also want to bring back the time that I can be happy without thinking anything else that will make myself suffer much. I want to bring back the urge in me to go to work being happy but from the time that I'm stepping in to that place, it feels like its not for me anymore. It feels like I need to be somewhere else and be away from my current work.
Its really a personal fight within me and myself. A struggle on how to let go of this feeling that is still holding on.
If only I can have the longest vacation just to be away.
My mom and I texted each other a while ago. I told her that I had another 130/90 BP this afternoon. Though its kinda normal, she again acted like other mom does. Prevent those foods that are bad for me, don't stay at night too late, don't skip meals, always have a pineapple juice with me, eat more fruits and all those stuff.
We also did talked about the new housemate that we're looking for. She was right, its really adding stress to me. All those financial budgets, payments, dues, rents and all the like.
My life now is really a whole bunch of stress full of things.
More stress, the higher the BP. The higher the BP, good luck to me!
Anyways, I don't know if I can make it to work tomorrow. What I have left for me now are these 12 pieces of 25 cents. Too bad for me. What's worst is, I still haven't bought my medicines until now!
Then there goes my stress meter going up again! Damness..
There's Something
..and it still hurts.
I don't know why I can't let myself be that happy anymore whenever I'm there.
A post before hitting the shower.
Time Check: 9:18 PM
They invited me to go to this place. A place where I don't know if I can go to, should I really be there in the first place?
Do you know what I call that place? Its a place of freedom. And I don't want myself to be there. It isn't really for me though, its for other people's freedom. If one can decide to go, then let me just stay. Besides, that's always been the case.
What I really hate the most is going to that place with the thought of that other people's happiness, and again.. its because of the earned freedom.
Can you blame me for thinking that I became the reason of why things aren't going well whenever I'm there?
I know, this is really pretty messed up. But I just want to get away of this.. this something. I wonder if how long will it keep on holding on.
I'm still quite depressed. And it shows.
9:37 PM on the way to the shower ~~
Mixed Up
Time Check: 1:02AM
A lot of things happened already. Personal stuff, Ozine experiences, Jamming and minggles.. Things that I haven't shared here yet.
There are just a lot of things that I wanted to say, but I just can't still get a grip of how I will be telling you all these. I'm pretty messed up with my thoughts right now.
Soon, I'll be living myself alone again. And I dunno if how am I going to start my whole life again being alone.
But I don't have any choice now, but to deal with it. This one's really unstoppable. I can't even do anything else, so maybe I'll just go with the flow and see what would happen next.
But I'm still grateful because I have my friends at Ozine whom I know are there in real life and in Valhallian life. XD
And somehow, my new desktop also helps me on making me so occupied. It really made me go addict mode to Ragnarok again, and I'm really looking forward to playing Dota with my Ozine friends. ^^,
oh, right. I haven't told my family about this new desktop. I don't know how they will be reacting if they would know. Hmm.. They might think that its wrong for me to buy this at this point of time. But for me, this is the only thing that would help me live on right on. I mean, somehow, it'll give me the enjoyment of staying in front of its monitor. Watching animes, playing online games, blogging, and I can even plan my next domains as well too.
Haay, how I wish I could put this thing inside my chest off me. >.<
Busy Me!
I'll keep you posted as soon as I get to wrap my thoughts everything up. alrighty? ^-^
See? I told you..
Aspire M3710 Acer Desktop
And that's what I'm talking about! At last! I finally own one! ^-^
Technical Specifications:
Processor:
Pentium Dual Core E5200 2.5GHZ, 2MB L2, 800MHZ FSB,
Chipset:
NVIDIA GeForce 9200
Memory:
2GB DDRII 800 MHZ,
Hard Disk:
320GB SATAII 7200 RPM
Optical Drive:
16X Super Multi Drive, with Label Flash Technology
Display:
Integrated NVIDIA GeForce 9300 Graphics Solution
Audio:
Integrated high-definition audio with 7.1-channel
support
Networking:
Integrated Gigabit Ethernet, 10/100/1000,
I/O Expansion:
PCI Express 2.0 x 16 slot
PCI Express 2.0 x 1 slot
Two PCI V2.3 5volts slot
Monitor:
With X193HQA 18.5" Monitor
Floppy Drive:
NO Floppy Disk Drive
Keyboard & Mouse:
With USB Keyboard and USB Optical Mouse
Speaker:
With USB Speaker
Operating System:
With Windows Vista Home Basic 32bit
Card Reader:
With Card Reader
Modem:
With 56K Internal Modem
Soft Load:
With Acer Empowering Technology
Warranty:
1 year parts and labor
And this comes with a free 3-in-1 printer! Isn't that just so great? ^-^
So there, Thanks to Villman for that specs, then Gid for allowing me to borrow his card to add up on the amount for this PC.
Konata + Acer
Some of the Ozine team members decided to go to Megamall yesterday. Actually it happened to be their some kind of a daily habit already. Well, thanks to school vacation that is! I guess this really keeps the bond tighter among us. Right team? XD
While those people already decided to come, Me and Rye had a chat over the YM about this Konata Nendroid that he really wanted to buy. The problem was, he just started doing his summer job and he still have to wait for a month to get his paycheck. Knowing that that nendroid was seen to be the only one left on that store in Megamall, he was really worried, as in REALLY worried to the point that he really do want to have it as soon as he can. Since that day was my payday, what else? I offered to help him buy the nendroid. Who knows, someone might just pick it up and buy it and take it home, then just imagine what might have happen to my poor lil baby rye. Hahahahaha! He might be growling in tears by then, in its chibi size pa! XDD So I told him that if I'll be receiving my paycheck on that same day, we will be going to buy his Konata Nendroid.
Then there we go! I got my paycheck and decided to share the amount for the payment on buying the Konata nendroid then went to Megamall to buy this..
Konata
And that's what Rye is really craving for a lot.. ahahahaha! I was even surprised that this was his first nendroid.. XD Then there goes his happiness! ^^,
As for me, I just went back to Robinson's Galleria to pay the bill at Globe and send some cash to my sis for her Summer Enrollment. I also dropped by at National Bookstore to buy my bro his book for his Accounting class. I was also planning to have my hair cut, but it seemed that it will cost me Php200 for that, so I just decided to go back to where I really have my hair done for only Php50.. XDD
Then here was what I felt, I don't know but Galleria seemed to have some air conditioning problems, its so hot inside the mall! And its really evident because my sweat was almost dripping really hard. So I decided to go to Megamall to freshen myself up.
There I planned to look for a desktop computer. And that goes for my future happiness..^^, I saw this Acer Aspire M3710 Desktop that really caught my attention. ^^, There goes the link, just click it up to see its specs. I was already really feeling it. Thinking that the time for me to play will soon come!
BUT! it costs Php27k, and my card only has Php20k limit.. >.< So i think I still have to wait for the right time for this to be mine... but what I'm thinking was to ask some friend to help me out about the card problem. Someone who has a higher limit than that. Wahahaha.. I just hope that there will be someone to lend me their card. Huhuhuhu..
So there, I think I'll just have to continue this post by then. By the time that I can already have my hand on that! XD
What To Do On A Black Saturday?
Doing it on a Home Buddy's Way, Of course you should first be staying at home! Right? What to do at home comes next to that question.
I went to Ozine Office yesterday and went home early this morning around 2AM. Went online for an hour and then I hit the bed. There's nowhere for me to go to right now, so Black Saturday really is a stay-at-home day for me.
I've been very busy this passed few days, so staying at home like this right now is something that is.. kinda new to me again. hahahaha! For once, I became used to going out, to the mall and to other people's places. To be with other people's company and to enjoy the moment with those people you know. But today will just be going to be a what-I-used-to-do day.
I woke up up and started to do my routine. Eat, bathe, then as usual, go online. Watch anime series and blog like this.
Happily, I was able to watch Naruto Shippuuden's episode 101-104 a while ago. I also tried watching the first episode of Jigoku Shoujo to know the kind of anime it portrays. Now, I continued watching Full Metal Alchemist. This is somehow because of the influence of Rye-kun.
I really don't know what to watch next after I finished watching Kiba. There's a lot of animes coming through my mind of what's next. To continue watching Gundam Seed, so that I can watch Gundam Seed Destiny as well, I also want to start watching Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuuutsu, Bleach and a lot more series. But then I thought of asking someone, Rye-kun for this time of what he is watching nowadays. He told me that he's now watching Full Metal Alchemist 2. So there goes my idea of what to watch next! XD
When Good Became Bad
Time Check: 8:23am
I'm at home assisting Gid to do some tasks on my behalf since I'm out of the office right now to attend the ingress for our 3 day event that will be starting tomorrow.
My mind was cool, my mood was fine, got off of the bed early, and was thinking of what to eat for breakfeast. Then suddenly, a bad news just started to break my day. Errors were found on the template being used at our office that made our Big Boss really mad. So who made the template? Me. So how am I suppose to act now that I'm here at home, supposed to be preparing already for the ingress that will start by 10.. (Time Check: 8:31am)
My mind just don't know how to think now. What happened was just really so bad, thinking that the result for that task was presented on the board. And what it made worst because these results were compared to some other group's result which was also doing the same task. And because of that.. errors became so evident.
Because of that error that I accidentally caused. I don't know what to do now. I don't know how to compose myself for the ingress later. Goosh..
8:38am. I think I have to prepare now for the Ingress.. and try to enjoy myself there. Who knows, Maybe after that I might end up jobless because of what happened. I just really feel sorry now. I don't know how to face all of them on Tuesday.
My Home Buddy Experience
And Yes! as you can see.. my new layout is up and running! thanks to Buy Templates for this layout. Though it made me fix its code for a long time now, I'm happy that I can already see my new layout online!
So as you can see.. changes occured. It now has a title, "xXxWhispered: Rashid's Home Buddy Experience" and a layout of a Living Room!
Since I've always been at home, let this be a blog of my thoughts being molded at home. Maybe that's why I ended up using that title. I'm just confused though about the Home Buddy Experience thing. Is it alright that way or is it more appealing if it was Experience of Being a Home Buddy?
What do you guys think?
Well then, I wasn't really going to fix this thing up today because for one, I have work tomorrow. I should have been sleeping now. Two, I'm thinking of what else could I add here? I'm thinking of using google ads but its kinda tricky putting their codes then seeing them not in proper places like the one that you can see there. Three, I think a lost a lot of the backlinks, err.. if its what they are called.
I was even surprised that my right panel was too high compared to the left and center panel. Seen it? hehehe.. I really don't think I can fix it now.
By the way, after this I think I have to hit the bed na.. I'll just let you know about this new layout maybe tomorrow. I'll have myself drop by at your blog sites. Alright?
So to sum things up, this is gonna be Mt Home Buddy Online Experience! :D Good Night!
Where do I go?
Since I need to let 40 minutes of my time pass by.. Maybe this is just where I'm supposed to be.
Seriously, I've been really experiencing a lot of emotional and mental struggles right now. And yes, mental struggles, you really did read that right. After being so emotional these passing days, maybe its time for my mind to take over. But then, my mind still don't have the answer to my very question, Where do I go?
I was at SM Megamall yesterday to meet up with some of my friends. I enjoyed and I was happy being with them. To think that this is a very good getaway for me, I should really have to enjoy. But, the going home part of that day kinda gave me the creeps.
As I was walking, lines like, "And now that I'm alone, do I have any plans to where to go to?", "Could I be able to go back here even when I'm alone?", "I think, its better for me if I'll just be staying at home..", "If I'm alone like this, how long will I keep on walking?", "Is it always fine to be just going out alone?", "Going out like this, there's no one I could argue with when it comes to where to eat.."
22 minutes more..
Am I just being so paranoid being alone? or am I exhibiting a fear of being alone? I even think that I'm experiencing depression to the point that I researched about the signs of how to tell if one is severely depressed.
I really want to be fine. I want to bring back the old me that smiles carefree. I know that a lot of things had changed and I personally know that I did change as well.
What I'm looking for now is a new path. A way to where I know and I can say that I belong. That I can be genuinely happy and can be free of worries and hate. Just how I wish that I could possibly see the light to all of these.
Maybe I'll just have to depend it on fate to drive my life out of these as what I had always been doing way back. I still believe that everything have its reasons. And this reason is what I want to know, why am I like this now and what this have to do with me on the things that would come.
I want to find answers to every questions that my mind has now. Maybe all I just have to do now is to live on.
Ozine Fest '09, See you there!
Panic
After having the codes running on my supposed to be new layout, I found out that my permalinks are pretty messed up! I know it should be fine, but where did I get it wrong?
Panic is really flowing through my veins right now. I know that I can fix this but damn.. When will I effin finish this up! Shoot!
Stuck in Coding
I was finishing my new template when something tricky came in. I just can't fix the coding for my blog posts! Everything on my new template is using span codes and I think I really have to check everything again detail by detail.
Maybe its going to wait again until I finally figure out what to do to fixed this up.
Tidbits of my today's thoughts
I just realized now that everything and everyone around me is changing. You might not be noticing it but its there. Change really visited us here.
Do you know what really made me surprised? I was the only one left who is single! Imagine, for this longest time of me being single, its just now that I totally made myself clear that I was really single. It somehow bothered me though, but c'mon! I don't really have to rush things up, right? And I don't wanna fall for someone else this early either. I mean, there would come a time for me to fall again. So for the mean time, I'll just gonna make myself busy and that's what I'm going to do until the stars found someone for me to fall to. Sounds right?
Anyways, I'm running out of moolahs right now! as in $$$!! I'm a bit lazy these passed few days and Its really hard for me to stay up online. Weekends are just the right days for me to earn some. What I want in earning extra here online is that, they should not pressure me by giving deadlines! I've been working so hard on my full-time job doing things so hard just to meet these deadlines, do I still have to indulge myself to these kind of stuff here? That's just it. I hate assignments which only gives me 24 hours to complete one as soon as I accepted the task. Well there's always an exemption though, forced assignment that is. What else am I still going to do with it but to finish the task as soon as I can without delaying the job. But mostly, really? I hate 1 day deadline.
So April 3-5 is fast approaching. Better prepare yourselves and make yourselves available by those dates! Ozine Fest '09 is gonna give you another spectacular anime experience again! Don't miss it! Its gonna be held at Megatrade Hall 2 of SM Megamall. Its just always a ride from where you are? hehehe.. (Hmmm.. am I right?) So there! If you want, we can meet there! hehehe..
What else.. Hopefully I can make the new template of this site be up this weekend. I really do hope so.. and from there, Expect me to really drop by at your blogs and sites. I want to be active on blogging again. Active in posting, blog hopping, greeting blog friends, adding up ne blogmates and all!
So there.. til my next post! :D
Waiting for what to happen
I dunno if I am already allowed to make a new post for my blog. My xXxWhispered is going on through the process of migration, Philhosting already had given me my new account information telling me that I shouldn't change first the password. I asked why and when am I allowed to change that, but until now.. there's no reply yet.
So now, I'm idle and I just can't do anything, though here I am posting already. I just got bored and there's nothing more I can do but to blog. Well yeah, I've been always watching anime series right now but.. somehow, the urge of posting just can't get away from the tips of my fingers.
I think I have to do the final touches for my new template. So there..
Sunday Once Again
Usual routine on a Sunday. Wake up, eat breakfast and thanks for Aris and Mel for the meal by the way, check my email, then hitting the laundry. After doing the laundry, eat lunch if hungry then hit back to check the internet for some work, if there are any. If there's none, rest for a while then take a bath. Then sleep.
Yea, sleep! hahaha.. And I love to sleep! :D Sundays and Mondays are the only days in a week that I got the chance to sleep long hours.. Working days just really drive me so hard, taking only a little hours of sleep.
Well anyways, about the previous post I got below there, which made my subscriber count really go low, I've somehow managed to release everything up already. the hate.. the love.. the thoughts.. everything which connects me to that post. Hopefully, I'll already be fine these coming days.
I'm still waiting for Monday to come so that I can already start migrating my whole bunch of files and this domain as a whole. Philhosting err.. wait. There, they only operate I think, during Mondays-Fridays, so I really can't call their office today.
What's next? Uhmm, I bought our dog, Terdy, a new pack of his dog food, plus these biscuit treats, and the meat loaf like dog food. I just let Terdy eat some of these a while ago and "wow!" He even asked for more! hahahaha.. I'm planning to buy him a toy dog soon. He's always been going to my bed to get my stuffed toy there. ahahaha! I bet, he really love stuffed toys! :P
What else.. hmm.. My phone is sick again. I let the service crew of Sony Ericsson to check it but they said maybe what my ohone nees now is a level 3 software. Come on, level 3?! What's that anyways? well.. My phone doesn't shoot pictures anymore but can still take videos. so there, Is it time for me to buy a new one? hehehehe..
Moving On
I'm hurting and I don't know when will this feeling is going to leave me.
I know that its been a long time when my string got detached, and I thought I was fine, just fine, and will always be fine. I thought it isn't gonna be like the almost 3 months experience that I had where in all I ever wanted was to be gone in an instant or to be buried deep down the depths of the ocean. But suddenly, everything that I thought about became all so wrong.
What I feel right now is 3 times the experience that I was in before. I thought, I was the one who gave way to just make things easier to not complicate things. If only I was not just so in love, that made me so much stupid, I should have realized it even before everything happened. It shouldn't have to reach 3 times of asking to untie the string and let it be like what it used to be.
Now, I'm seeing myself as someone who is really so tanga over that foolish thing called love. Asking it not to break it up was just so stupid to ask for, and asking it the second time was more than stupidity. Well, I might be so insensitive back then. Thinking that everything's gonna be alright. But what I never really thought of is, maybe, asking for a break up is already a sign that a relationship isn't going to turn out right. That on the first time someone ask for it, give it right away because in the end, you'll just be messed up and you will find yourself all alone again.
So stupid that, I just realized it now, that there were already a lot of signs floating around me telling that i should let go. Looking for a place to live in even if it means me being left alone, asking me why I still don't have someone else? and why do I still like to do things that I became used to with? Isn't it like I've been already being pushed away? Indirectly telling me that you must go your own way coz I found someone new now. Did I became so crazy not to realize it the soonest? Was I still enjoying the feeling, unconsciously? Or my eyes were just so not clear anymore to not see that things are different now?
I'm beginning to hate church and Him more now. Now I'm thinking that it was still better that you don't know why you've been left alone, than knowing the reason why. It is just so ridiculous that someone's giving you this reason, where in that same reason is gonna be like an indirect statement saying that I've already found someone else.
I've already hated this kind of situation before and I don't know why I'm still experiencing it now. Its just pretty much the same. In the end, you'll gonna get hurt. Is it still worth saying that you enjoyed love even if its the one that caused you so much pain?
I don't know what to do now, maybe I'll just let things be for a while, hurting me as it is until I got immune of the pain. Moving to another place won't work, got no enough penny to finance, and I'm gonna walk into it still at work anyways. What I can do right now is to avoid, as much as possible, everything that goes into that. This may mean eating my meal alone, going home alone, and pretending that I'm not hearing anything.
Who knows? I might forget everything bad that happened after posting this one up. Damness, How I wish.
So yeah, this is a hate post for today.
Getting Ready
As soon as I order my new hosting plan on Philhosting, expect me to be idle, but not dead, for the moment. Philhosting had made some major changes of their architectural structure which may help a lot of its client, me included of course, in giving us a better service. Something that we really deserve from them. I'm happy for this change and I hope this will turn out better.
And because of this, we, the existing clients, were asked to migrate our domain to their new server to fully experience the new change that they made. So as soon as I get a hand of a 330 pesos, which is going to be my yearly payment, on my pocket and pay for my new hosting plan.. the migration of my domain will commence.
This is also a good timing for my blog because hopefully, I can now give my dear whispered a new face, and a whole new identity. Something that I'm really looking up to. This, now, is for real. I already had finished the pages that I'll be using in here, and all that I'm waiting is the migration of my files.
So there, this was supposed to be a surprise for all of my readers, but since I'm really excited.. expect this new change as I am getting ready to put it all up. ^^
Its Sunday, And yes! it is..
Sunday means being at home to me. I always got nowhere to go to so I'm really stuck here every sundays.
Is my blog half dead? Are there still any visitors? I think its been because of me.. I got really busy these passed days which made me hit bed early after coming home from work. I must admit, work's kinda giving me the pressure.. and yes, I'm being pressured. But I can't blame them.. as the line goes, "With great power comes great responsibility" Maybe I'm just to good at what I'm doing at work which really made me feel this way. I'm still being humble, okay? Heheheh.. Just so I'm lucky now.. that somehow, my hard work paid off.. Sooner, its gonna bear fruit.
Would you believe that I'm now an official Homebased Freelance Writer? Yeah.. my application was approved yesterday. I really don't expect this now because, its been months that I submitted the application. I didn't expect that my application was still undergoing the process.. Heheheh. So there, since I've been blogging all this time, I thought of applying for that position in a local firm. so there. I still have to pass my final test though, hope I pass.
Still, I'm thinking of where to get a big amount for our house. It needs to be repaired again.. but I'm still having this problem on how to finance that. Tomorrow, I'm planning to get a barangay certification because its the only easiest way of having an additional government ID as a requirement for my BDO Application. They need 2 government ID, but I only have one.. my SSS ID.
So there, til my next post!
Busy,, so busy..
Yep, i've been really busy these passed 5 days! Hope I can have a break from work.. whew!
Day After Heart
So what's with me this very early morning after the St. Valentine's Day?
Prepare for a lot of randomness!
Tomorrow is Every Heart's Day!
Already have plans?
ako..? wala akong date eh.. kayo ba?
Randomness
Hell week's over and we're living normal days once again. But being under in a huge supervision doesn't end there yet. We were left with tons of tasks which needs to be done ASAP! I even have a 2 week deadline for a certain documentation, plus the validation that I'm also been tasked to do. Whew!
Anyways, A lot happened on my past 5 days of not posting. Here are some random thoughts.
What else.. hmmm..
And those were just some of the many things that happened! Randomness! xD
Hell Week
Though this week's not yet through, I'm seeing this as one of those so-called hell week.
We're like in a military school whenever we're at the office. Its like there's always an eye seeing right through you looking at everything you do. From the move of your head, from the time you stand up, from the time you do work and everything. You can even say that we're like living at Kuya's PBB House because of that. Well, there were are surveillance cameras installed but there's actually more than that. *sigh*
Then my mom is here again and I don't know why. I mean, I know it will help if she'll stay here to have some rest but I think its better if she'll be staying with my two other siblings who most needs her than I do.
Anyways, we were supposed to go play badminton yesterday. But because of the kind of internet connection that we had, we were asked to stay until we finish the task. Then there goes our time to play. But you know what happened? We were supposed to stay for the task but were sent home by 4:30 telling us that we'll just have to continue our task on the next day. Argh! If only they told us that earlier then we should have got the chance to play that day. So just to end the day right, we went to eat at Tiendesitas and enjoyed ourselves there.
Then I think this is it for now. Its 9:55 PM already. I told myself to sleep by 8PM to have a full 8 hour of sleep but ended like this. 2 hours late from sleep. So, ciao!
Good Night
Its Monday evening again and its already time for me to rest. I've been here earlier, ready to post. But I found my blog to be down again. Plus the fact that Philhosting is on its way making some change. I hope its for the better-ER.
I got something that I've been doing yesterday. Maybe in two weeks time I can be able to finish it. I just can do it on a weekday. My mind's already loaded with stuff from work, so I'll just refresh my mind by playing Zoids Legacy. :D
Yep! I'm playing Zoids again for the second time. I learned how to use Visual Boy Advance in Linux, so there. Enjoy enjoy! :D
Labels? Done!
At long last! I've been able to clean up all of my previous posts. From removing the "//" on each of the beginning of my previous post titles and by labeling them accordingly.
I almost spent 2 hours for doing all of those editing and stuff! O.O And that really was so boring but I really have to do it just to make things organized.
I'll just have to take a bath after this then I'll hit something up in here. I have another project running, waiting to be finished. I hope I can somehow get a grab on this one. xD
Sweat it Out!
I know, its been 3 days already when I last posted something in here. And so I'm back!
Sweat it Out! After over a year of being stuck at home, I had the chance to go out and have a physical workout. Raymond invited me together with Gid and Pheng to go out an play.
Though we only spent an hour playing, that already made me sweat really hard! XD Maybe we're going to make it an every Wednesday habit from now on.
I'm not really going to make this post long. There's really a lot of things running inside my mind now, so.. you can just check some pictures that I took here. One Hour at the Court.
I'm Doomed
I'm coughing *cough* *cough* right now! Waaa.. Ayokong pumayat! Well, pumapayat kasi ako pag inuubo ako ng ganito..
One thing more that really made me think I'm doomed is.. I wrote the wrong information on my application form for a loan on Chinatrust! Arghness! And how will I be approved now?! My Landlady doesn't want that kind of fallacy. Damness!
By the way, thanks for those people who's always been passing by. Just wait me to drop by at your site too.. okie..? ^^
And this is where I stand
Warning: This post contains words which may not be suitable to a very wide group of readers. If you've got problems with direct to rough and offensive thoughts, PLEASE, DO NOT READ FURTHER. You've been warned.
This is in regards with Igi Boy's Shut The Fuck Up post on his multiply journal.
But before I proceed, let me make this clear. Since you've already reached this far, I assume that you've already prepared yourself to what you are going to read on my today's post. If you've got some reactions, you may keep it to yourself and contemplate but there's always a choice for you to leave a comment about what's on your mind and let's see what we can do. I'll respect anything from all of you, Its your mind thinking, not mine.
So to move on, Igi Boy and I had a chat about this biatch (as what Igi Boy's friend described her) who seemed to saw this some kind of divine light which made her be what she knows she is right now. I've got no problem about the path that she's going through right now, As if I care. And this all started with this.."hypocrites are everywhere. may bakla palang homophobic. oh well. see you in hell, bitch?"
Then there goes this some kinda acting innocent girl who only knows nothing but the holy words asking Igi Boy, who use that as he's YM status, if he believe in the existence of hell.
Full conversation can be found on his Journal.
What made our chat burn hot is when this lady prophet is encouraging, to the point of even forcing Igi Boy to believe that there really is hell!
Come on! Does she really have to go that far just to make us believe that hell exist?! I hate people telling me straight to my face something that they didn't even proved yet. I hate people acting that they know everything! I know this isn't my business but this isn't just the only thing that happened to me when it comes to that hell thing be it existing or not.
There's this banner ad that I always come across with whenever I go to eat for breakfast and it just says exactly what that little converted into goodness girl had said. "Do you believe in hell?"
You know what hell is for me? If it connotes the opposite of heaven, this place that we are all living now is hell. Simple as that. Why? Get real! Where else will you find all kinds of sins? Nowhere else but here, right? So believe it or not, we are all living in hell.
But of course, we, people, have different perspectives in life. I can't blame you if you're not going to believe in what I believed on. Its your choice, and as much as I wanted it to say again, Its your mind thinking, not mine.
Ok, fine. Maybe you're asking. "Aren't you RC? Err.. should I say "Aren't you a part of the Roman Catholic family? As much as I wanted to. I was born Islam. And that's what I am still until now. I've always been thinking to convert myself religiously but I ended up forming my own principles in life.
Is being part of a religion a requirement in order for us to live in this kind of miserable place? Some people even tell us that we are not going to be saved if we won't follow them in their quest to see the light. That you're not going to be blessed with the divine mercy.
Can't we just let ourselves live in a simpler life without worrying much about who's gonna guide us spiritually!? I may now be talking about faith here but does the word faith should only be used and be limited with the spiritual being referred as God?
Can you actually feel God's grace? If I would to apply here the "To see is to believe" thing, then, I don't. I may not seem to see the air that I'm breathing but I know its there. Of course I can feel it even though I can't barely see it.
I'm not being an atheist here or anything. I also pray to God even though I don't believe in Him that much. Its something that I believe more on falling stars granting a wish rather than asking and hoping for someone you couldn't even see to let something happen. And here's something that I want to share, even though you can't see a star falling, try telling them your wish. I'm sure somewhere above there, a star is falling, and there should always be a falling star, its just that our eyes are not that powerful to use magnifications to see the real star falling.
See the difference? Its not that I lack faith but I do have complete confidence in me that lets me know what to believe in.
There's this line that goes,"Everybody wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to go first."
See? Life itself is really a BIG BLUFF to me.
Maybe what's left for us to do is to enjoy life as long as we could. People say that we only borrowed our lives from Him and everything that's been happening to us is because of His will.
So, Am I suppose to see myself as a puppet in a world that He built?
That may sound strange but still, I believe in free will. That nobody can ever influence me on deciding what's good or bad for me. On what I'm supposed to do or on what I wanted my life to be. You can say that it is still God's plan for me to be like this, I don't care. As long as I know and can clearly remember that its ME who picked the choice for myself and not anybody else, I'm fine.
I also do believe in luck, and luck always goes with the connection between everyone living here on earth. I believe that the action of one can always affect other people's deed. And this naturally affects me also. And that's where my free will starts. I choose paths depending on how the situation is being laid upon on me. You may think that are lives are just following some script, but its not. Still, you have your mind running. And most importantly, you're not the one going with the flow.
I believe in karma as well. In the sense that when your action was known. When you give kindness, they will give you back the kindness. But when you've done bad, people will try to do you bad in return. Its just somehow defines the phrase, to give back the favor. well, this now goes also to the line, "Give love to the world, and the world will give love back to you"
As time goes by, principles are being formed within us, and this is what is guiding us through out. So, if you know for yourself that you have the right to stay on earth alive, then you should know how to respect other people living on the same plane as to where as you are right now. Learn from them and do not impose something up on them because no one can ever let ourselves believe on one thing but ourselves alone. And this is where I stand.
Got Tired of How it Looks?
We are seeing it everyday and its always been the same as it was a very long time ago. We go out, see places, and get inspired of the beautiful spots that we are seeing along the way. But from the time that we're back home, there it goes again, just looking at it makes the day's joy into half. Is it because you've already got tired of how it looks?
Well, what I'm talking about is actually our home. Had you given your home some makeover lately? Or are you still satisfied of what you are seeing on every corner of your house? Isn't it time for your lovely haven to undergo some Home Remodeling? If your thinking how, there are a lot of Home Improvement Guides that can surely be a big help for you if you're planning to do some major change.
You might be thinking of the difficulty that you'll be facing but as long as you know the right Tools and Hardware Supplies that you are going to use, there should be no worries anymore. If you're not very good on using these, then a Tools and Hardware Guide will always be there to back you up!
This also goes out to the teens who are always thinking of changing and changing the looks of their rooms. And their number one buddy when it comes to doing their Room Renovation is nothing else but House Paints. You can always see their creativeness on their own rooms and you will always be surprised on how good they are on mixing colors for their walls. But well of course, if you're a parent reading this, its always been nice to spend some time doing this kind of moment with your kids. And to make these kinds of moments be more memorable, you can teach them how to paint using the proper House Painting Supplies.
Its not just your soul that needs to be revitalized, it always been better to refurbish the place that you are in. With just the simple set of Hand Tools you can already make a change on how your home would look like. You already have a renewed home to stay, you also had the time to enjoy doing it!
Good Night
I'm just here to post a "Good Night" Message.. XD
And that's it! I just ran out of time to stay online a bit longer. I'm gonna be back tomorrow anyways so don't worry! You'll not gonna miss me that much! Nyahahahah!
Btw.. Terdy has a new dog cage! A bigger one! XP Pics will be posted soon.. ciao!
Unexpectedly..
You know what? I was down and that was really evident. But now, I felt shy on how I acted on my previous post. I acted like a child, it was so immature of me to think that way. But somehow, that helped in pulling out what's really inside of me, right? I don't really have to hide myself, maybe not in that kind of situation.
What happened today was something that is unexpected. Maybe, its because I decided not to be that happy. But I think God was just so kind because He really knew when He would be cheering me up. Jaro, a friend whom I met online, also a listener of RX FM like me, greeted me a "Belated Happy Birthday" and that was when my day started to be fine. Jaro is living abroad, I'm not just sure of which part of the US she is residing. But what I am very much sure of is, even though she greeted me a belated message, they were still having a day late from us! So that only means that it is still my birthday! The day may end here but I still have an extended time for me to celebrate it, right? XD
Today was me and my Manager's plan to celebrate our birthdays through having a little birthday party at our office pantry. I haven't expected this to be so happy! I enjoyed the moment, the food and the people who were there to give part on that simple event of our lives. What even surprised us was the cake which was serve to us by our loving teammates! :D
My cake!
And that was not just it! I thought the meal was all that, but what I really didn't knew was this one which was lying on my station waiting for me to pick up! I haven't even noticed it at first! XP
Me w/ Britney at the Oscar's!
Isn't it so amazing! I even kept on staring on that for a long time just to make sure of which of which is really mine! Ahahahaha! That pic was just so natural! This really made my day so complete! And that I really have to thank my team for giving me all of this! This was the most unexpected thing that happened to me lately.
(O dba nakakahiya.. pagkatapos kong umarte ng ganun kagabi, ngayon biglang "wow!" na "wow!" ako! nakakahiya!!! @_@)
Anyways, I dropped by at Friendster to check if there were still some people who greeted me, and I thank them all for their dropped comments to my Friendster page. And from all of those messages, this is what I really liked the most.. :D Another fansign which came from Xian. Thanks sis! X3
From Xian
Happy.. Birthday to me.
For those who were asking? Yes, today is my birthday. Then?
My day started nicely, I waited for midnight before I hit the bed but when I was about to shut down my Duke, (by the way, Duke is the name of my EeePC) messages started to roll in one by one! And on that the very moment I thought of: "OMG! I forgot to change my status (YM) to invisible!" So what else could I do but to make a reply to each and everyone of them! Well that really didn't bothered me at all. All that I'm thinking that time was just, "Oh my.. when will this end?! I still have to sleep for I have work by 7AM!" Hahahahah! But then I, managed to be out from all of those for a while. Anyways, most of them were my officemates who were at the night shift.. so no biggy! heheheh.. And some of those who greeted me happened to be from my Ozine family! XD
So as I woke up, the day just seemed to be a normal one. Cold and as usual, its still dark outside. Preparations went through then off we were to Ate's kainan! Its not that I'm expecting for Ate to treat me for breakfast knowing that its my birthday but what happened was the same old thing! My breakfast was still charged to my account! XP Well, I think there's nothing yet for me on that very early morning! Hehehe.. Asa naman ako!
The day continued to pass by and there goes my same old routine at work. Bunch of tasks! Bunches if there is such a word! Maybe what just made it slightly different was those some people who greeted me a "Happy Birthday!" And I mean it, there were only few. Well I really don't have to announce it that today's my birthday, right? But what went into my mind was.. Is it just all because of the treat that grabs much attention that they will know that today is someone's birthday? I'm not being bitter or anything but.. C'mon! Well now this goes to those people whom I know that they know that today's my birthday. Hmm.. why didn't they made some little effort on it? T_T To tell you honestly? there's neither anything or something that I got from them for me to remember that I once celebrated my birthday at the office. That once, I celebrated my birthday with this new team that I'm at now. Somehow, I missed my former team, maybe if I'm still with them, maybe they had prepared something for me. Something that will make me remind that I once celebrated my birthday with them. I'm very much aware that we will be have something for tomorrow, but this is not anymore part of my day. If only I had kept something for me today...
But going back to reality and to what actually happened, there was none. I might just have to hold on to what kuya Abe had told me, "Pray and thank God for the blessings that He had given you, that's what is more important." Right. Anyways, (I'm not crying ok? hehehehe) maybe I'm just into those some little yet special things, a readon for me to act slumpy right now, those that I could have treasured as something that I received this January 13 of 2009. But I'm still grateful that they remembered this day of the year to greet me a "Happy Birthday"
Just to brighten up this post, I want to share what I received from these other people! These were something that really made up my day! XD
From Erin 
Fansign ala Ozine! 
From Igi Boy
And these were just so great things that I had received on my birthday! I was really so much happy because of what they sent me. XD Erin even told me that she will give me that Fansign/card when we see each other at the OzineFest '09! Isn't that so cool?! :D I just didn't have the pic of it but also a hand of it! XD And of course! Luigi, whom I often call Igi Boy, was the one who is on the third pic! Hmm.. No one from my OZ family really remembered that JLo thing over there! Hahahaha! No one but him! Amf! ahahahaha! So why JLo you might ask!? Well, you should also figure it out! X3
So I would like to thank everyone who greeted me on my birthday through my textline, my OZ Family, friends, former classmates and batchmates, and my family as well. This also goes out to those who dropped me messages and testimonials on Friendster and for those who left a comment of greetings for me here on my Whispered and as well as on my Multiply account!
And also, a big thank you for our dog, Terdy who cheered me up when I'm about to end the day sleeping. If not because of his super effective na paglalambing I shouldn't have posted this one up today. XD
So there you have it, ciao!
Talking About Me
Here I am posting on this time of the day that I don't usually do. I usually make a post at night, as in late night before I go to sleep but then my hands went through typing "www.bloger.com" then here I was making a post as early as 6:10 in the evening. So what's gonna be my story?
My day of the year is fast approaching but i'm kinda slumpy this passed few days. Hmm.. for those who really know me, I think they really know why and that goes to my family and Gid. I really do feel down kapag.. kapag... wala nang laman ang kaban ng cash ko! T_T feeling ko nga magkakasakit pa ko dahil dun.... huwaaaa.... And there it goes, Its always been a yearly problem for me, after spending the holidays, I'll be left with nothing for my birthday. *looks up to see the countdown.. T_T* Iniisip ko nga, May magbigay lang sakin ng kahit anong galing sa Mcdo masaya na ko nyan. As in! kaya kung may mag-iisip man sa inyo na padeliveran ako ng mcdo.. go go go lang! hehehe.. But what I'm thinking is.. If you are into making something for my birthday.. (hindi naman ako maxadong nag eexpect no? hehehehe..) Pwedeng pwede na ang fansign! :D Masayang masaya na ko ron at ipopost ko pa rito..^^ What do you think? hehehe..
Oxa, I'll end it up here na muna, kinukulit ako ni Terdy! Pagugulung gulungin ko muna.. nyahahahahah!
Alone with our dog, Terdy.
Everyone's out for tonight, Aris and Mike's on their shift right now and Gid's gonna be home later tonight, so I am really been left here alone with Terdy.
I don't know but there's been a lot from me these passed few days. I've been watching animes lately, finishing every series that I started. I've also been hooked up on watching some movies.. And I'm doing this all even though my usual routine is back.
But besides all that, what's freaking me out are those thoughts that are floating inside my mind. Some of it are of my family, and most of it are of mine. I've always been thinking about my life with this lots of "What ifs" now. Haay.. if I'm gonna lay it all down here.. this post is going to be so boring, so I'll just end this part of my story right now.
I haven't been dropping by to my friends' blogs yet. Uhmm.. I just don't have the perfect mix of my mood yet to do so. Sorry for that...T_T I've also been observing my page lately. It isn't loading properly again. New posts aren't showing up as soon as I publish them either. I wonder if something wrong is happening again. I'm confused if its my site, my web provider or Blogger is having the problem. I even discovered one thing about from one of my feed subscriber that suddenly my page just didn't showed up and even gave him a "You have no permission to view this page" message! What the heck is happening now?!
But anyways, had you noticed? Google had updated Pageranks just recently! And congrats to my dear whispered of having a PR2! :D So there, somehow that made me smile.. :)
My New Year's List
Happy New Year!
Rules:
This came from Rob and here goes my list!
1. Work, work work! Life without my work is miserable. I need to work no matter what.
2. Fun of course! Somehow, Having a hard time working, isn't it better to have some time to enjoy even for a while?
3. Be goal-oriented. I have to aspire for something. I need to have a goal. Something that will push me to live forward. Something that will answer the question, "What do you live for?"
4. A time for my family. Ever since I worked here in Manila, It was only once when I went back to our province to visit them. I know that they are spending the holidays with me here but isn't it good sometimes to make a surprise visit for them?
5. Self Rewards. Will I be called selfish if I'd be going to think of rewarding myself? I'm really not used to pampering my self, its just that, its always been my family that comes first into my mind. Sorry if I'm like that.
6. Save. Its actually one of the most difficult things for me to do. To allot something to be kept. I ain't got anything saved yet knowing the fact that I'm already on my second year on my job.
7. Travel. This was included on my list last year. And I'm still gonna do it this year. Last year, I managed to be away from here. Now, where would you think will fate bring me..? :D I don't wanna name places but I want to make sure that I'll gonna go places. :D
8. Wants. Organ. Not the body organ but this electronic organ. I missed playing anime music scores already. Gaming console. I wanna bring back memories of me playing with those people who were really dear to me. Maybe, somehow, before the year end, I can put my hand on one.
So there! This are just the firsts that came out of my mind.. :D
Now I'm tagging everyone whom I am going to drop a comment onto their website.. hehehehehehe..
(Happy?) New Year
Am I really that happy for the New Year? I guess I'm not. Its just now that I realized, I haven't greeted anyone on my phone's list a "Happy New Year". Maybe its not just really that happy for me.
A friend whom I bumped into asked me why I didn't replied on his "Happy New Year" greeting. I also heard from our office people asking and telling "Hey! I texted you a "Happy New Year!" How come you did not replied?!" well I guess, that made me think too.
Well anyways, holidays are just a small time of enjoying life, right? Maybe that's why Christmas and New Year were made close to each other for us to spend these days without thinking our problems. But the time that these days are through, we are again to cope back to reality.
And also I realized, how come I haven't made my list of New Year's Resolution!? Maybe I wasn't really that excited. I know I have to change something and do about it but here goes my mind telling me that "You really don't have to do it in a yearly basis, right?" Well I guess his right. But, since I've been tagged by Rob about this "New Year's Resolution" thing.. I think I'll have my mind be one with me to think about what's gonna be for me for this year.
So expect that on my next post okie?
Days After New Year
I haven't been able to make a post last 31st and New Year's day because my site was down again for some unknown reasons. I was about to report it again but as announced, they will resolve things up until they get back to work after the holidays. So that would mean on the 5th, but luckily my site showed itself up again and here I am back to posting! ^^
My mum, sis and bro left early this morning for Bicol, at last! If they stayed long, problems will just get worst. Financial that is. Hehehe! Now, I'm facing some financial crisis because of their visit. Hahahaha! But anyways, I know this will be resolved in due time, soon. What's important is they were here to celebrate the holidays with me. right?
Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle
So what kept busy?! Watching animes and some films..^^ I finished 6 films then the anime Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle, both season 1 and 2, plus the 3 OVA series. The anime wasn't completed yet and will just be releasing their new season this year i think, hopefully. I am just being puzzled though by the cross overs being done by CLAMP. There stated that cross overs from xxxHolic was made to continue the Tsubasa series. would that mean that I should be starting watching xxxHolic? hmmm..
By the way, about the layout, I think i've decided already not to use the one i got before. Its really hard for me to tweak it but, I know I can, just got lazy making it work though. So what's gonna be done now is to look for some easy layout as a replacement for this present one.
So I hope everybody here had a very nice start of the New Year! Enjoy okii?! ^^ I'll just gonna visit you up soon.. :D
Andi Chiko's Christening
Andi Chiko's Family
This was my first to attend a binyag. Kuchiqui's (Andi Chiko's nickname) mom, who happened to be my elementary and high school classmate and a close friend as well, invited me to attend her baby's christening and asked me to be his ninong! Eh, makakatanggi pa ba ko? hehehe.. diba hindi na... XP Since I haven't went to Bicol for vacation, (Its because my mom and siblings are here!) I decide to go to the ocassion.
Kuchiqui is actually my 5th inaanak already. To count, I have Reijin from Willy, Ashley from Ate Anne, Nathan from Bing, Vince Tristan from Manay Nen-Nen, then Kuchiqui from Julie and Vic! XD Too bad I am not seeing these children that often. 2 of them are from Bicol, 1 from Cubao, and 2 from Pasig.. Maybe I have to be somehow responsible for my gochildren too, right? If not because of Kachiqui's christening, maybe being a ninong to these little angels is not going to be cleared to me yet.
Attending one of the blessed sacraments of the catholics, I understood now the meaning of being a good ninong to them. Its not just being there to be their second father, its more than that. Maybe its God's way of telling me how important these children are for him, that he'll be needing me to guide these little cute babies along the way. And that is what I call this a duty from above for these little ones.
Its Christmas today!
A greeting from Rob
And that's another greeting from Rob. Thanks man! I'll gonna add you up on my list okie?
Anyways, I got this message tru my contact page.."You were a top site sending traffic on Christmas Eve! Please let us know your mailing address and shirt size (they run a bit small) so we can get a BlogDumps T-shirt in the mail to you!"
Its from Blog Dumps! A blog directory that I joined in. I wasn't suppose to believe it because this can always be just a spam or a prank but when I visited their blog, It was posted there the name of my Whispered who was one of the top five bloggers who's going to receive a gift from them! ahahaha.. I never imagined something like this to happen with my dear Whispered.. :D
So there! Though Christmas day became a general cleaning day for me, it still made me feel the giving and sharing that this day can bring. I hope you all had a glorious Christmas day!
Gifts!
Merry Christmas!
And that's what I can only give you since I can't really make use of Photoshop now. I hope you guys will somehow like it! Merry Christmas!
Anyways, I received another set of gifts again! nyahahahaha! And here they are!
From Keira 
From Xian 
From Krno
And that's what I got here online, what about the real gifts? Here they are! :D
From Grace 
From Kuya Rad 
From Arcee, Ate Ems, Ninoy & Kuya Tootz 
From Ate Kris
And that's what I got from them! :P Later tonight, we here in the apartment are going to have another exchange gift again! A "What you get from Fifty Pesos" Gift Exchange! hehehe.
So as early as now, I want to greet you all a Merry Merry Christmas! XD
My First Online Gift!
From Nelson
And that's my first gift here online for this Christmas Holidays! I missed receiving this kind of gift! really! hehe.. I remember my early days of blogging where in I received a lot of this stuff before! May it be Christmas, New Year, Valentine's and Birthdays! a real lot of gifties! :D
So this one came from Nelson of Flirt-Wind. The one who accepted me to be part of his family domain. hehehe.. A lot of thanks Daddeh! XP
By the way, today's my sister's birthday! Happy Birthday Sis! Ang laki ng cake mo! Gigantic! ahahaha!
Tweaking is tayerd!
I'm getting tired now on tweaking the new layout that i got from Buy Templates. Its just so.. uhmm.. It has a lot lot work to do! I can't even make use of a single [center] tag! Can you imagine that! Am I gonna stuck myself on paddings and margins?!
Pero.. I already had my new logo be done last week. nakakahiya naman kung hindi ko gagamitin yung layout na yun.. lagot! Waah! I am doomed! T_T
They are here!
My mum, bro and sis. They are all here! Early Christmas vacation! Oh my! Poor wallet.. ahahahahaha!
Early this morning my mum and I went at the Cubao bus terminal to make sundo to my bro and sis. We arrived there by 3AM and waited for a very long 4 hours before they finally arrived. We assumed that their bus will be arriving by around 3-4AM. But we learned that the bus that they are in had made a lot of stop overs along their way which made them arrive at 7AM. Imagine! After waking up at 2:30 AM having only a couple of hours of sleep! This really made me not to go to work. It made me catch colds, and this slight fever. Amf! Too early, what do you expect! Coldness! Imagine again the 4 hours we've waited only for the bus to arrive! whew!
Anyways, they were already here, enjoying the unlimited access to internet! :P So what else?! let Christmas start now!
Straight home
Early in, Early Out.. Go home! Ngayon nalang namin uli nagawa yun! Why? Here's the story.. hehehe..
Tuesday We went to Megamall (again!) to pay Gid's Smart bill. Then we went to CD-R King to buy 2 Notebook Fan Coolers, 1 for Gid's sister as a present and 1 for my little Duke of course! Who is duke? My Asus Eee PC! hehe..
CD-R King. Such a very unforgettable experience! Why?! try buying anything, then you'll gonna experience everything that everybody does! yung mahabang pila, saleslady/cashier na imbes na kinakabisado ang mga codes ng mga items nila eh ayun.. nagkkwentuhan pa kahit na umaabot ng isang oras ang mga customers nila sa pilang napakahaba! I know, compared to a lot of stores, they are one of those who have the cheapest. No wonder why people stay on the line even if it will take them a lot of time only to pay a single item! Well, nagreklamo pa ko, eh isa rin naman ako sa mga pumila.. hahahaha!
After the CD-R King experience, we went off and decided to go home but to our surprise. there were a lot of people waiting for their turn to ride the FX! As in isang napakahabang pila nanaman! That was really my first time seeing the longest pile of people on that FX Terminal! What happened was, we tried waiting an FX at the other side of the mall but again to our surprise.. Heavy traffic!! It was then when we knew that it was just 7PM, rush hour. Now starving, we ate at Bodhi. Yep! For vegetarians only! ahahah.. Feeling herbivore daw?! ahahaha!
4Life. While eating, these 2 people next to our table approached us. Another network marketing! what else!? products plus sales talks plus invitation plus future profit! what's new? well, there's one. This one is for our immune/nervous system. a molecule, tasked to balance the transmission of everything to our body. hmm.. I'm not really going any deeper about it, just that can't it be fate that made the traffic jam, and those long pile of waiting people at the terminal that made us meet these 2 people? What if this is my chance to become rich! ahahahaha!
Wednesday Eto ang talaga naman! We went there para samahan si ate kris pumunta sa BDO, Megamall Branch. tapos namili na ng pangregalo para sa ibang inaanak nya. Then I'm not gonna make this any longer na..
Aakalain nyo bang linakad ko mula Megamall hanggang Tropical Hut sa Shaw? yung sa may San Antonio going to Boni! Bakit?! Eh kasi ba naman.. andaming pasahero.. kung iipuunin nga eh siguro kalahati ng kalsada mapupuno na nila! Sa Mega kasi, punong puno na rin ng pasahero ang FX Terminal kaya napagdesisyunan namin na sa Shaw nalang mag abang ng jeep o kahit taxi. Kaso ano? wala! As in walang bakanteng sasakyan! kaya ayun.. alay lakad ang drama. Nung nandun naman na kami sa Tropical Hut, antagal rin siguro naming nag antay ng taxi.. anggang sa may isang Tricycle ang lumapit.. nag offer na ng ride going samin. Ayun! Parang FX ang pamasahe, 20 pesos.. pero oks lang kasi.. ambilis! shortcut! mahangin! aahahaha!
Then we got home by 12 midnight, I managed to sleepp naman by 2am. kasi naman.. dahil sa nangyari hindi na ko inantok! hehehe.. kaya ayun, nagpaantok muna.
Now We got home early. As in after work, diretso uwi! I want to sleep early para makabawi ng tulog. So this is it na muna. Ciao!
And so I'm back
..to the mall!
I was supposed to be having a day or two to rest before going back. I was online for the day and had a nap til 4. A call woke me up asking if I already have something for our exchange gift for tomorrow. And guess what my reaction was.. [In a still sleepy voice..] "Wala pa eh, bukas na nga pala yun no? sige punta ako jan. (Megamall)" Though I really wanted to continue my sleep so badly, I really just have to get up, prepare and take a bath then go straight to the mall.
What I was looking was for Sir Mob's motorcycle gloves or a jersey and we were told to have a Php 300 - Php 500 budget for the gift. At first, I thought that it will just be easy for me to buy one not until I remember that I am not really into those kinds of stuff! So where in that whole wide mall will I look for those! ahahaha! What was on my mind was to buy the motorcycle gloves instead of the jersey. So first I dropped by at the department store but found none, then I went to Toby's to check. There are designs for the racing gloves that costs Php 2000 plus! And for some.. err.. bicycles?! And because of the word "Bicycles", I doubt on buying that. hehehe.. Nakakahiya kung maling gloves ang maibigay ko dba? Well anyways, I walked for a while thinking where I can find one, stopped by near the rail knowing that Martin Nievera was there to promote his (was that his Christmas Album?!). Stayed there for a while, then went downstairs to end up seeing this store, SportsHouse. I asked for this particular gloves. The guy handed me one and told me that it can be used for motorcycles, and it was! From what I read at the back of its pack, It can really be used for motorcycles! Without a doubt, I went straight to the counter and paid. Then there goes one of my problems solved! hahahaha.
By the way, I'm planning to change my layout.. (Sa wakas! goodbye na muna sa emotic na kulay ng aking template.. nyahahah..) Well maybe, I also make sunod to what Emz told me.. I quote: "baka kelangan mo gawin mong mas macho pa ang site mo (tho di ko alam kung anong mas macho pa sa black & grey). hahahha Hmm.. Mas macho.. I dunno, but Buy Templates offers a wide variety of business templates and one of those thousand templates caught my eye. I'm still on the process of planning because I'm thinking of giving my site a step up for this coming year. Well, remind you.. Its gonna be my birthday next month! ahahah.. So I think, Remaking this site is one way of bringing the Christmas in me, on celebrating the new year, and my birthday of course. All in one! :3
And then what happened?
We arrive at the Mega Tent by around 6:30 PM, I think. The venue was just half-filled with people by then, The programme then started at around 8PM with of course the usual thing. Invocation, National Anthem, message of the Country Manager, then another message from the representative of the US Team for the Marketing Department, whom I'm not really sure of but I think its him who gave that last message. Then from there, series of presentations from the different department teams followed and the raffle draw being done in between.
The Raffle Draw. Unfortunately, I didn't won anything from all of those prizes that were given away. Maybe I just really don't have the luck of winning in a raffle draw. Anyways, 5 Wow Magic Sings, 5 (if I'm not mistaken) 8Gb Ipod Touch, 3 PSPs, 1 PlayStation 3, 1 (hmm.. was that a video cam or some sort of the like?), 1 Acer Notebook (Laptop or Notebook, whatever..), then a 32" Flat TV were the prizes given away a while ago. Mostly, the winners were from the Sales Department. Data & Catalog Department, our department, had 4 winners, Steve won a Wow Magic Sing, Marianne got the (was that a Wow Magic Sing also or the one that I saw from the monitor..? An external Hard Disk?), Jonah Delle received one of the Ipod Touch then Nikki got the Acer Notebook.
Presentations. What really got my attention were the teams that presented the Pirates in motion from the HR/IT/Accounting/others that I don't recall, The dance presentation given by the Marketing Department and of course the Data & Catalogue Department. Who won? We only got the third place with a Php 10,000 price, the second place was grabbed by... them whom I don't remember, then the Marketing Department hit the first place again which gave them a total cash of Php 30,000 as their price! As what they were saying, history repeats itself and it did it again. Last year, our department grabbed the same spot as what we had now and same as for the Marketing Department. Will that still be the same case next year?
The Party as a Whole. Well, we were told to bring our IDs for this will be our ticket for the raffle. The scanning of the bar codes, you know. The venue, the Mega Tent, was so big. That made me wonder about the price that they paid for that. Compared to the Glass Garden, to where we held our Christmas Party last year, I might say that last year's venue was better. I don't want to say this though but after what happened to the company these past weeks, I think, looking for a so big venue is not the best choice. I mean, well, I don't know if which of the two were cheaper but, as what i saw from the party. I think only 3/4 of the whole venue was used. I'm even thinking if they really thought of counting the participants because the tables were just not enough if we'll base it to the number assigned to each table, though there were still a lot of tables which were not assigned with numbers. I don't know but maybe people just didn't like the idea of sitting at the back end of the place which was already so far from the stage which made them sat next to their teams. Every table must only have 10 people on it, but because of the case, tables were occupied by as much as people that it could and I think 12 people were still fine in those kinds of tables. For the food, all I can remember is those small brownies and those sliced fruits with a lot of watermelon. And also this viand, uhmm.. chicken in a white sauce. And how about the rest? never mind. They seemed to have no tastes for my taste buds. I even remember this lady who kept on telling us that there should only be 10 people on every table because if not, the excess will not be going to be served with food. Hello? Earth calling that lady! Come on! Where was that part of the party where in the food was supposed to be served?! Are you kidding me?! [edit: well.. I just really can't blame her though if that's their protocol.] What happened was a buffet style. I mean not really buffet because all we did was to go near the food station then someone will just be serving you a serving spoon filled or two of every food. Was that what you call being served!? So going back to the table with your food, your next problem is going to be your drinks. Don't they have enough manpower to serve those drinks!? I mean, we almost finished eating our food yet there were still no one from the (waiters should I call them?) attending to our pagsesenyas. As if they were only told to serve this specific group of people! Not until we finally finished the meal when they gave us drinks. After "enjoying the food", the party took place, there were several bands who performed which were also employees from the company. Maybe if not because of them, I wouldn't had enjoyed the party.
Just to make things clear, if you find it so offending.. tell me and I'll just revise this depending on how you would like this to be. These were just the things that I had observed, and this is nothing to be afraid of.
So there, we left the party without waiting it to end. Some went home, some continued the party somewhere else. Me? I went straight home after the party. If only mum is not here I could have also joined the pack who went out.. hehehe..
Good to go!
Our Christmas party's gonna be tomorrow na! And somehow, I managed to prepare everything up already. My clothes, my shoes, the body spray, the necklace my tita gave me, everything to be worn are all set up but the things to be fixed in me aren't really that fixed yet. I'm thinking of what style of my hair's gonna be for tomorrow, and my face which I haven't gave some effort on like giving it some facials. Haay, What's gonna happen tomorrow's not yet certain though. But all I'm hoping for is for me to win one of the prizes for the raffle draw! Oh please let me win! hehehe..
So I think this is gonna be for tonight's post.. Still have to get myself some beauty rest for tomorrow's event.. hahahaha..
But before I go, I'll post this up! something from Lionheart/Richard about a text message that he received, a twilight thing actually.. :PFew reasons why a lot of girls love Edward Anthony Masen Cullen...
A normal guy would say, "I love you Baby!"
Edward would say, "You are my life now".
As you leave the house...
A normal guy would say, "Bye, see yah!"
Edward would say, "Hurry back to me".
While you've gone far away,
A normal guy would say, "I miss you!"
Edward would say, "It's like you've taken half myself with you".
If you die,
a normal guy would find another....
Edward would kill himself cause "life without you isn't worth living".
Post before bedtime
This is the only day this week that I went home early after going to a mall! As in! Its because of the hunt for clothes that we are suppose to wear for our Christmas Party on Sunday. Its like.. wait.. read it one by one.. hehehe..
Monday - We went to Trinoma then SM North just only to find out that what I'm looking for will be found on Maldita (for my top) and Blue Navy (for my pants) of SM Megamall! We stayed til closing.
Tuesday - We spent the whole after work time at Megamall til closing again. We went back for the girls' outfit this time and for me to get my pants at Blue Navy because it happened to be so long for me.. (eh sabi ko nga, hindi naman ako katangkaran.. sorry naman! kaya ayun, pinarepair pa.)
Wednesday - Thank goodness coz I went straight home from work! Early to bed ako kahapon! as in TV Patrol palang isplak na ko! nyahahahaha!
Today - Megamall then Shangrila.. Then there ends our hunt for clothes! (Buti nalang tapos na! whew!)
Maybe I'll be starting to hate December now because of this! the search for what to wear is really freaking me out! So tiring and expensive! (expensive dahil sa kakakain sa labas! hahaha!)
Anyways! since going to mall for now will be lessen for a while let me share this to you. This just really made me say.. WHAAAAT?! hahahahahah!casey's beauty blog: was here. new post sis. comments are highly appreaciated. :) mwah mwah!
Ay grabe ha! nabasa nyo ba yun?! sis daw! hehehe.. nawindang talaga ako sistar ha! sobra! as in super blown away ako jan sa komentalu mo sa aking shoutbox over there! hindi ko kineri! pramis! Its like i'm gonna faint pa nga nung nabasa ko itey eh! buti nalang nagdisappear ang konekness ng aking internet chenelu yesterday kasi kung hindi mas bonggang bonggang reaction pa ang mababasaness nyo rito! ampness talaga na may sabay pang kagat labi!
ahay! See! I got carried away! ahahahah! There's no problem with me naman.. nagulat lang aketch.. este ako pala! hahahaha..
By the way.. (change topic na to.. :P) Remember my post about my missing IDs? They're back! You know where I found it? At the HR's office in a brown envelope where they put those IDs of our officemate who already resigned! Imagine that! hahahah.. Why and how did that get there!? But anyways.. I already got my IDs back so I am not going to bother myself on worrying about that anymore.. :D
So well, that's gonna be for now.. Matutulog na aketch! :D
4 days after..
And that was pretty long for some rest.. :D so what happened to me in the last 4 days?!
Well, my mom and I celebrated my youngest brother's birthday here. We we're supposed to leave for Bicol but my mum was invited for a reunion with her long lost friends.. err.. yeah, lost! haha.. Its been almost 2 decades when my mum haven't seen them. I mean its more like her friends had been looking for my mum long time now because of all of the reunions that happened, its only my mum who wasn't been able to be there because she was no where to be found.. hehe.. so that makes my mum to be the long lost friend of them! :P Big thanks for our telephone directory because mum saw her friends' landline number on it..
There's nothing much more that happened in those passed days.. I just had a long rest and that's it! :D Hmm.. but talking about the landline.. our phone still doesn't have a dial tone and its been 3 days already! I haven't reported it yet though because i thought that it will just come back on its own thinking that i still have my internet connection running. But now i think I should report it now before it reached a week of having no dial tone at all.
Then, you know what!? My proximity card together with my Company ID is missing! as in holy crap! its like I didn't even brought it upstairs when we were asked to go up at the 5th floor for some company-wide meeting. All I remember was after lunch, I placed those, together with my phones, on my desk then when we were called upstairs, the things that I only managed to bring were my phones! I already had noticed that my IDs weren't on my pocket when I went up but I was still calm because I thought that i just left it there on my desk thinking that THERE'S NO ONE THAT WILL EVER TRY TO GET IT THERE! Yes, and that is with full emphasis! So tomorrow, If still my IDs will not show itself, then its time for me to report what happened to the HR.. It isn't my fault anyways.. Its not like I misplaced it or anything like that because I'm always making it sure that my things are always on its place whenever or wherever I leave them. Haay.. I am just so pissed off, really! argh!
Well anyways.. just to brighten up my day.. I received this! and thanks to EmZ for giving me and my whispered our very first award ever! The Marie-Antoinette A Real Person, A Real Award. :D
From My First Award
There are also a few blogs I know of that deserve recognition:
1. Edelweiza
2. Carla
3. Jh3n
4. Casey
5. Monica
6. atenean101
7. Purple Worm
Furthermore, accepting this honour does have its requirements:
1. Please put the logo on your blog.
2. Place a link to the person from whom you received the award.
3. Nominate at least 7 or more blogs.
4. Put the links of those blogs on your blog.
5. Leave a message on their blogs to tell them.
What is on my Monday!?
Why is it when it is Monday.. It rains?
Anyways, my Monday is just so not a typical one. What I usually do on Mondays are waking up without my phone alarms, eat breakfast, play with our dog, do some chores, and be at home being online. But what happened today was just so different. I woke up because of the alarm, haven't had a nice breakfast, haven't got the time to play with Terdy, our dog, Haven't done some cleaning, and Its just now that I had the chance to go online!
Why? You might be asking.. remember my previous post Day off? Yeah, even though i thought of not going to our office for that overtime, still, I have to go and finish the task given. I went there 9:23 AM and went home by 3:36 PM. We were suppose to go home but we opted to drop by at our Manager's condo to get the gas tank that they weren't been using anymore. and there we saw Hiro with his new haircut. By the way Hiro is a dog, a shih tzu. I'll just post some of his pictures soon together with some of Terdy's too..^^
Had you been here earlier? I mean, super earlier? My blog went down this morning when I dropped by in here. It almost been down for a day actually.. good thing its back now.. Hope there are still people who could drop by in here even though its been a little too late for this blog to be up for today.
So since today is Monday, I have to rest early. Tomorrow's gonna be another full time work again. By the way, Thanks for those who passed by at my blog.. hope to blog hop this coming days so expect me to be posting some comments on your sites.. okie? ^^
Survey Survey Question!
I had this one filled up a while ago.. another about me survey.. hehe.. Things that you would like to know about me.. So here it is..
Now if you wanna answer that survey also.. there's the link! you could also add it up to your about page.. I think.. hehehe..
so there.. a post before I sleep.. :P Be sure to read my post just below this one okie? I also included in there a survey-like question about the statement given by someone.. Thanks!
Post it!
This may count as one of my very short posts that I ever made in my whole blog.. I've been busy lately watching anime.. hehehe.. I had already finished watching Code Geass, both season 1 and 2.. and now i'm into finishing the series, Shakugan no Shana where in I already started watching its first episode on its second season.. maybe I need another weekend to watch it continuously..
Well anyways.. I was looking on to my dashboard when I come across into my old made blogs.. and here is what I found..
From RashidOnline Blog Pics
a drawing of Kilua of Hunter X Hunter.. asking who drew it? who else!? ME! It was way back when i was still at college.. out of boredom.. I, together with my other siblings, tried making drawings, which we never had tried before.. and there we knew that we have something hidden in us.. Some sort of hidden talent.. hahaha.. And this is what my brother did that day..
From RashidOnline Blog Pics
i'm not just sure if its Yoh or Hao Asakura of Shaman King.. but still it looks good right? Afer that day.. we haven't made another drawings together.. i think we should do it again sometimes.. hehehe..
Still Thinking..
I got myself busy on watching Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion, and i just found this anime as one of those i watched that really kept me on thinking.. a really mind boggling one! if you're into animes like me, then better watch it now.. season 2 of this anime is also out so i think i'll be continuing on watching the series soon.. i still have to look for the episodes dubbed in english though..
and by the way.. also for those Naruto Shippuuden fannatic, Episode 83 is already out! I just finished watching it now.. XP
alright, based from my previous post.. this anime thing is not what i am referring to, but i can also consider it as one of my options.. i think you had already noticed that i had added another page.. the EARN Page.. (looks up..) Seen there are the sites that i had applied in to earn some extra cash.. i've read reviews about them and learned that they really do pay.. so if you've got some time, try them..
You might also notice the strikethroughs that i've made.. i learned that dealing with a topic will be one of the factor that may increase my site's pagerank.. however doing so will just make things more complicated.. maybe i just got carried away thinking and focusing on how to make my site go up on the charts.. wherein looking on to my stats.. i think i still have a lot to learn before i can really do it.. its better to do things slowly but surely, like what Nelson had told me before.. so i think i'll be sticking on this for now.. but of course, thanks to Hiro and to my Blog sister Xian! They just really helped me on clearing up my thoughts.. :D
So what i must do now is create some online relationships.. hehehe.. my Blog sister Xian is right about telling me to blog hop more often.. its not just the blog that counts, its also about who are reading it! right? so maybe i'll start to gain some readers using my friends' friends.. correct?
about the anime thing as one of the options.. i'm thinking of adding up a page of it making reviews of those i'd finished watching.. but i just don't know how to make a review.. maybe a simple comment would do but how about making a review? that's one more thing i'm dealing up now..:P Since this is my blog, (Hiro, thanks for reminding me that..:P) and i've been sharing all my thoughts here.. might as well share the things that i like to do also, like sharing what i'm doing on how to earn some extra cash..:P so what do you think?
by the way.. i added a feed count widget and learned that i have 7 readers.. for those people.. thanks for subscribing! i really appreciate it..:D
Hmm.. I want to change my OS, i'm using Linux now.. and because of that.. i just can't play a lot.. mostly of the online games are for Windows.. i think this can but still, i have to go through a process of doing it unlike in Windows that you just have to install it then you can already go playing.. One thing is a wider screen.. and also, i want to have a desktop PC.. haay..
so there.. til next time!
Deep Thinking
I'm currently in the stage of thinking on how to improve my site.. and i'm thinking that posting these kinds of rants are not helping me.. i think i'm not making any sense now or making any good conversation here.. well i know that i lack the effort to do my part but.. i think i have to remodel again this site..
i'm taking up now a 7 day e-course on how to manage my blog more effectively.. and i'm also planning to attend the blogging seminar that will be held in our company.. i hope i can make these things applicable to my blog when i finished those courses..
well, expect me to start focusing on a topic soon.. then there you'll start seeing the changes.. and i hope i can see some changes too..
so i think this is for now.. til then!
Be in line
As promise.. i've already managed to migrate my images from Flirt-wind.net to Picasa which is an online web album catered by Google.. I also had managed my labels/tags here.. at least i had them organized..
If you had also noticed, I disabled some of the sections in my navigation bar.. I got problems renewing my link on these sites so i just have to make them unavailable for now..
Anyways.. i've been reading some blogs.. some really serious blogs about serious blogging.. and i am learning a lot from them.. i learned that if you wanna be making money out from your blog.. you must be a better than yourself blogger as well.. hmm.. maybe better than the state that you are now..
like for me.. i've always been thinking of making money from this blog.. but i haven't thought yet of making my blog into something that can really catch the money that i'm wanting.. there are a lot of factors that i still have to consider before doing it.. traffic, relationship with other bloggers, the catchy posts and designs.. having a single theme of posts..making your blog familiar to all.. if not for all.. for some real blogger instead.. and a lot lot more!
so maybe.. this blog will still have to run a long way before i can start making business in here.. so.. better be a good blogger.. ayt!? :D
Break
November 1 is silence. Yeah.. Its always been quiet for me.. I can still remember several November 1's that had passed and all of this are so silent..
I remember myself getting so bored on a November 1.. of course its a holiday and not all establishments are open.. and that really just lessen the people coming and passing by.. Another November 1 that really made me remember is about last year.. this might not just be a literal silence but more of the emotional stillness.. I just can't remember it clearly but.. this was i think the last day that i saw someone.. who really had a connection to me.. well i am though seeing this person now here on Manila.. but the situation is just different now..
and today's November 1..
i should have went home to our province to visit also my youngest brother but the holiday is just so short.. and i am not having enough money to be brought there.. of course i have to spend for something when i'm at home.. and besides, mum's here and i think we're going to church later.. And i just hope my other siblings who are left at home can manage everything there.. without our mum with them..
so what am i doing on this kind of a holiday?
I woke up at 10:30 in the morning.. ate brunch then sat here infront of my small asus.. and guess what.. episode 80 of Naruto Shippuuden just fits this day.. argh! i hate it but i don't want to leak some spoilers! hahaha..
good thing today's November 1 falls on a saturday and this just gave us some early day off.. and somehow a long rest as well..
so how's your November 1?
Jumbled
What do you think about if your thoughts seemed to be so messed up? what do you do if you wanna calm yourself down? Can you easily make yourself still even though your emotions and thoughts are mixed up?
You know what? i really just can't think of anything to blog out.. hehehe.. my mind seemed to be so blank and just cant pull anything out.. hmm.. let me try..
This day just become one of my same old days.. another used to be Tuesday.. wake up, prepare for work.. then killing time doing my job.. Some of my team mates at work went here at home with their laptops.. upgrading their antiviruses and installing office '07.. one of them even brought her dog.. which i really don't know how to spell its breed.. haha.. sounds like... Shih Tzu? :P that small one with thick fur.. maybe now you're getting a picture of it.. then correct me of the spelling if you already know.. XP
i'm feeling so lazy now actually, or maybe i'm just feeling sleepy na.. by the way someone even loaded my smart number an AllText 20 without even texting me who that was.. I'm not even active on texting these days.. the only people that are receiving my texts using my smart number are my housemates and mum, sis and bro.. and its almost seldom when i text them.. one reason for me not to worry about loading it up.. i also have a globe number.. wherein my friends at Otakuzine are only the ones who are texting.. and its already been 3 days when i last had it loaded.. i think i'm not just really so into texting nowadays..
alright.. i think i have to get myself some sleep.. i'm kinda sleepy na.. Good Night!
Me on a Sunday
Got myself rested.. Had sleep twice this morning and got in to my Eee PC this afternoon after taking lunch by 2PM. What to blog right now?
See the changes..
I signed up to some Blog Directories to help my site get some traffic.. these can be seen on my navigation bar, Badge Section. I edited the About Page.. (btw, thanks to Nelson's About Page format), Also i added a countdown for the Ozine Fest '09 next year.. also some sort of promoting the event.. also seen at the navigation bar.. I'm also done going to my linked blog pages to tell them about my new link..
What to do next?
A lot more of Blog Hops and doing a religious job on going back to these blogs and be a main stay.. Look for some other site paying bloggers and try them up then soon to recommend it to you all.. Still my images are being kept back at Flirt-wind.net and i still have to migrate those.. about the labels.. i'll not gonna be prioritizing them for now..
Well so anyways..
Did i told you already that i moved again? Yeah, I moved category teams at work again.. If you don't know.. From the very first time i entered our company I was with the POS team for almost over a year, then was moved to Body Parts, Lights and Mirrors Category when the management decided to categorize everything, then after a couple of months i was transferred to Car Care, Car Covers and Car Bras Category which later was been given to another team and let us lead the Lights and Mirrors Category.. Actually just last week when it was announced that our team will now be handling Lights alone.. making it called Lights Category now.. but 2 months ago.. I requested for me to be transferred to Intake & Exhaust Category since one of them already filed a resignation.. well in short, I wanted to be the one to replace that person.. then just a couple of days after making the request.. i was also been requested to be part of the Special Projects team who were operating at night.. and there I stayed for almost one month, then I came back at the morning shift still waiting for the go signal for me to be transferred.. and then Till it almost reached 2 months of waiting.. still they are telling me that i still have to wait for my replacement for the team that i'll be vacating.. Luckily, one of our big boss came to the country and stayed for some quite days.. thinking that they are already discussing about my matter of transferring to another team.. i should already feel calm.. but thinking that yesterday was our boss's last day here.. i already got the feeling of talking to him directly to ask him about my status.. and there it goes.. i talked to him and promised me a reply by the end of the day.. and guess what.. It was after lunch break when he told the Intake and Exhaust Category Manager, who also happened to be the one who handled me when I first worked at POS team, that i can already be transferred to their team..
And that really gave me a big *whew*! At long last.. ahahaha..
But though that already happened.. it was also the same day when i first experienced seeing everything going round and round as if i had fallen on to the floor.. and there i knew when i went up to the company clinic that i had a high BP of 150/100. The nurse gave me a tablet to prevent the pagkahilo, she didn't actually advised me to take the medicine for lowering the BP because this might also give me the same experience if my BP will rapidly go down..
So there.. I think i really do have to watch out of everything that i'll be eating from now on.. some kind of diet.. for my health and also as a preparation for us to go to Boracay!
Yep! we are bound to go to Bora! i remembered that i was sleeping in the morning that time because i was on my night shift when I woke up suddenly reading a text message that i was already been booked on a flight for Boracay! See! So instant! i didn't even did anything.. all i have to do though, is to go to the office and paid the fare.. It was one of the managers who booked the whole gang there.. Why so rushed? They saw a promo at the Cabu Pacific Site for only 632 pesos fare which is already a back and forth route.. Imagine that! Hahaha.. so what i just have to add up to that is another 3 thousand pesos for the contribution which already includes food, island hopping and the house to be rented i think..
Its not everyday that i go places, so i think its just fine to spend sometimes for some leisure and relaxing trip.. Well actually.. this is gonna be my first vacation trip for this year.
So there you go.. Gonna be posting back soon! ^^
Lazy Boi
I was suppose to do these as part of my blog's migration to my new domain.
But tonight is just not the right time to do it.. i feel so Effin Lazy.. So what i'll gonna do for now is.. SLEEP.. I think i'm gonna need some for i had this high BP (150/100) this afternoon that made my eyesight go turning around.. as in nahilo ako na feeling ko natumba ako pero paningin ko lang pala ang umikot ikot
So i'll be having my rest for now.. Hope i can make it up in here tomorrow.. Good Night!
I Moved
And here it is.. i am now officially opening my new link.. http://www.rashidonline.net, I just had my previous content be moved here and still have to do a lot of editing..
Its not yet done actually.. i am still seeing a lot of flaws from what happened to its migration. To clear up my left files at http://www.flirt-wind.net, to migrate my pics to a different provider, manage my labels, what else.. bring back the traffic and to trace everything that i signed up using my previous link..
There is really still a lot of work to do.. but somehow this would be fine for now.. its almost 12 and I still have to have my good night sleep.. Have work tomorrow pa kasi..
So i'll gonna be leaving it first like this for now.. be back tomorrow..^^
What's New?
So just to keep you posted.. I already have now a wireless router.. and this is what i'm using now.. my friends, since i've got an internet connection here at home, requested for me to buy them this router so they could make use of the unlimited DSL service.. what i'm thinking now is.. am i going to make this for free? or is it fair if they will somehow give some contributions? hahaha..
well anyways,. i also bought my Eee PC a 4gb SD Card for some extended file storage.. I'm thinking of making ths as an extra drive.. but i still have to figure out what will be the pros and cons of doing so..
What else is new?
Ive got myself a new bag from Bench.. I'll just post the pic soon since I haven't got a shot of it yet.. I actually bought this bag for this Eee PC.. and this little guy here just fit in right on that bag..^^
And also again from Bench.. a perfume called Wired.. Just thought of using it again after a long long time.. it just somehow brought me some memories about my Bud and Sis way back from college..
So.. this is all i think for now.. be back soon..^^
Shorty
Just a short post. got myself a lot of things to be done a while ago. well anyways.. I just finished an article that i'll be using for tomorrow.. you just wait.. ;) So its already 10:16 PM and i have to prepare my self to bed coz i still have work tomorrow.. so this is it for now.. :P
Plans
Do you still remember what you wanted to become way back when your still a child?
This is what i've been contemplating on last night. I just can't remember what i wanted when i was still young. Maybe if only i could remember, maybe that is what i am right now. I should have followed that dream. But then, for a reality check, I'm here now as a full time employee in a company that i've been with for the last 2 years now. Well, on the 16th to be exact. I don't know.. but am i already that successful? I don't think so. This job was only been with me only for me to receive monthly salary, This is actually what i didn't wanted. Maybe somehow, because before, after sending resumes, what i thought first for a job is that i should be on a graveyard shift and is free to surf the net. And that was the only point why I accepted this job. It was way back when I was still at Legazpi, earning 6k per month.. See? It's not because of i'm happy towards the job, maybe with the company of friends, but its starting to bore me now. Or should i say, work doesn't really been fun, so what's new? Now, Working here in Manila and transferred to day shift, the only thing that is keeping me attached with this company is the salary that i am receiving. If not for that, maybe i should have flown away from this firm and looked for another job. I don't know, but i still believe that there is a certain job for us that we will have fun. And that will only happen, I think on handling part time jobs.
I had a chat with a friend about him receiving much more higher salary on his part time than on his full time job. Isn't that so great? Same case, the full time that he's having doesn't give him fun anymore but he's earning more through his part times.
Now, Having internet connection here at home, receiving part time is one of my goals. But since i'm just using asus' eee pc 701, I'm only limited to do articles, blogging and/or data entry, which is still limited because i'm running linux now and only have open office as an alternative for Microsoft Office. Maybe for now, this is the only way for me to make use of my available time and resources.
From RashidOnline Blog Pics
Now, I'm still on my way to learn a lot from blogging and SEO as well. Then I'm planning to buy myself a domain, maybe this will be a step towards something big. So from here will be me on a level higher.. XP
bACK aT dAY!
people here were telling me that, "Shid, pumayat ka?!" Maybe because of the shift that i had back then.. well anyways.. i'm back.. and i'll be on my way to gain back what i lost..XP
There's been a lot of things running inside my mind now.. btw.. i now have my PLDT Connection at home now..^^ just had it last October 1.. and my apologies for not posting here a lot from these passed days.. i just really had to make the previous post up for some quite time for plugging.. XP
well anyways.. since i now have the internet connection at home.. (yeah.. i'm posting this now here at the office.. sssshh! XP) i'm now thinking of rebuilding this blog into something marketable.. (is there such a word?! XP)
There are a lot of changes that i need to do in here.. i now want to let the money in to this site.. One of the major changes might be the layout of course! i want it now to be a kinda business type but still i wanted it to have a touch of anime of course.. but.. how?! i am still looking for websites which let user use their pre-made layouts with that kind of layout ofcourse..XP
Another thing would be to decide if i would be staying on Blogger or make a move to wordpress.. i've been lurking around and learned the wordpress doesn't allow its users to make paid reviews anymore.. unlike Blogger which gives its users the liberty to do anything but of course with the limits given by the site..
I'm starting to get envious of these bloggers who can earn through their blogs.. and that's what i'm aiming to do also.. i know it would take time for me to be prepared for that.. hope i just can do it soon..
Another thing is the traffic that i need to bring in to my site.. i need readers if i wanted to earn! ahahaha! i hope that people will just be kind to drop by and have the reads into my posts.. XP
what else?! now, i am really in the process of planning my daily routine online.. the listing of the must do's.. i just don't want to waste my time of doing just nothing online.. i have to be productive now.. or rather.. be more productive..
Sleepy?
Now what?
its been 3 days already when i last had a long sleep.. what's happening now is something which really is making me look so haggard..
Monday. Labables. yeah, laundry.. manual washing of clothes i should say.. it did really got me tired.. after that i should have slept but i just couldn't hardly sleep.. so rather than taking a nap, i decided to eat.. pancit canton plus malamig na milo.. :D then from there on.. i lasted the day til i got tired of watching tv programs and thank God i already got to bed and sleep.
Tuesday. A day to start the week of work. i hate it when i look at myself infront of the mirror seeing myself so badly.. haggardness is so effinly obvious.. so what i did was some sort magic to hide these up.. then tadah! no more traces of unlikeable features.. but what i noticed to myself was.. i'm not in the mood to be bothered or to be talking with people at the office.. maybe this was just the effect of a uber lack of sleep.. then what added up to that pa was.. we have to stay at the office til 11pm to wait for my mga kasama sa bahay to finish their EOD tasks! isn't that great for me!? take note.. from 4pm-11pm.. you'll be feeling hungry and sleepy na! its just nung 11pm na when we managed to eat at the walang kalasa lasa ng Chowing..
Wednesday. And that's today. still i'm lacking sleep.. and now i'm sorta hungry even though i have to stop feeling it coz i shouldn't be eating a large meal at night. siguro nga sana kahit paunti unti nakakakain ako.. right? we're still at the office.. again, waiting for the others to finish their EOD tasks..
so kamown! what else!!
anyways.. blogging on phone.
Brrr morning..
well.. got no breakfast this morning for we woke up 5am already.. we used to get up from bed by 4am to prepare for breakfast but i think the coldness is what kept us tight on our bed..
waking up.. since our bathroom is yet to be fixed.. (the owner decided to leak check the whole apartments bathrooms) so we informed the owner's housekeeper to let us in to use their's..
and this happened to add up to the Brrr moments today... the water comming out was so icebergy cold! yeah.. icebergy! hahaha..
then.. going to office was another one.. full blast coldness of the aircon on the room! my jacket wasn't even enough to keep me warm! hahaha..
well anyways.. enough for the coldness madness first.. i've been reading blogs from my rss provider when i came across on this one..
wahahahaha! better try it too.. and guess what result you'll have.. :P
Hungry People
How did i came up on this Hungry People subject anyways..
Last night, we were in a fx ride going home when suddenly a traffic enforcer stopped in front of us.. have a talk with the driver and what else.. the driver have a violation na pala.. so i dunno.. but there nothing happened like giving out of tickets.. or its called anything else.. pero wala talagang ganun..what happened was.. the traffic enforcer made the driver follow him till this point near Megamall..(well, kasasakay palang nga namin nun eh..) The driver stopped and went out to make negotiations with that traffic enforcer.. at pagbalik ni mamang driver.."naghahanap lang yun ng pangJolibee.. gabi na eh.. gutom na siguro mga yun.."
Then there, I just really don't know if the driver really had commited a violation but what i'm sure of is.. nagkabayaran lang talaga..
Wrong.. dba?! its just so wrong for these kind of people to use their powers just to make such stupid acts! kaso naman syempre para walang hassle magbibigay ka nalang, dba?
anyways.. isa pa.. one of my officemates is hungry of this iphone which is now giving away by globe..
From RashidOnline Blog Pics
Globe is now to release its iphone to public this August 22 i think. To bad i just cant afford it pa.. But i do also love to have one too.. or should i also say.. "I'm hungry for one?"
btw.. later on we'll be going out to watch my ever first Star Cinema movie on the big screen.. hahahahahaha.. napagtripan eh.. at isa pa.. sponsored naman.. so i don't see anything wrong on that naman dba?! hehe.. what to watch?! eh di yung A Very Special Love! hahahaha.. it was suppose to be yesterday that we'll be watching kaso ang nagyari.. kuamin nalang kami.. at umiral nanaman ang pagiging malamon! then scheduled the movie watching today.. so ayun.. its later after work.. :D
And talking about after work.. yeah.. i'm done with my daily tasks now.. and i think i can leave the office as soon as the clock ticks 4.. and NO ONE can stop me now! hahahahah.. they say that we'll be having a meeting regarding on the team building with the other category.. bahala na sila nun.. basta ako.. yoko na maulit yung time na umuwi ako ng late dahil sa sa work.. mabuti sana kung OT yun.. kaso hindi naman..
so what else?! til next post naman! :D
From 4 Onwards
Til when will we be waiting for the right time to go home?! til we finished our task?!
C'mon people! we all wanted to finish our task before 4 comes! but why the hell are these kinds of tasks are coming our way?! Til when are we going to be like hell?! Damn!
But actually its all about me and the people helping me on the job.. I don't know if i'll be calling this kinda unfair but how will you describe this?!
I know we're still on the beginning of this whole bunch of things and this is how i am suppose to be understanding.. but hey.. if you're thinking that some other people are doing these kind of jobs so quickly.. THAT'S BECAUSE THEY ONLY HAVE FEWER NUMBER OF THINGS TO DO.. AND THEY ONLY HAVE THIS KIND OF THING TO BE DONE ON WHAT THEY OPT TO DO.. unlike ours.. its just like we're digging it out til we hit 6 feet under the ground!
i know that you only wanted to have the best result that you wanted to see but can't you just consider the time and all of our braincells used on this kind of job! Don't tell me that it's part of my job description coz i for myself obviously know that it is and you don't have to tell me straight into my face! the only thing that i wanted to raise about is this..
we only have 8 hours of work.. and from those alloted time we should only be doing the most possible kind of work flow that we could possibly finish! AND JUST TO REMIND YOU BEING AT THE OFFICE LONG BEYOND THOSE HOURS STILL WORKING IS NOT STATED ON MY JOB DESCRIPTION!
Its not like everyday that we are getting help from other people.. If cases like me filing for leave coz i really do needed it so badly.. are you going to tell me that i'm not going to be allowed coz there are a lot of things waiting to be done?! or if i was allowed.. will you let this other person finish the whole task even this other person reach late night only to finish it?! fine, option is you'll lend her some help from these other people.. what if worst comes to worst.. no one is available to help!? C'mon! Is there such a way for us to make this kind of job be easy for all of us?!
Its like can we have some kind consideration!?
This all may sound so immature of me but.. IF YOU HAVE SOME THINGS TO DEAL WITH AFTER OFFICE HOURS.. SO DO I! and its not going to be everyday that i'll be going to be available passed our working hours..
This is just what i am really feeling right now..if you find this so aggressive.. well.. better look up there.. If you could understand what that mean then scream! coz you just have nothing to do with this but read..
Anyways.. enough of this non sense! (o dba sabay non sense lang ang lahat.. hahaha)
Just imagine this.. they became "them" for 19 days officially.. receiving chocolates and flowers is fine but despite this very short length of time.. would you believe that the guy already gave this girl this?!
From RashidOnline Blog Pics
C'mon!!! Is this what you call LOVE?! hahahaha.. Now where can you find someone like that in this whole wide place of ours.. hehehe.. Just take note.. This is a long distance relationship.. and they haven't yet got the time to see each other.. how's that naman!! aahahahaha! ANG LUFET DBA!! SAN KA PA!! AMF NA KUNG AMF!! NAKAKAINGGIT!! WAAAAAH!! PWEDE BANG HINGAN MO NALANG RIN KAMI NG TULAD NYAN SA KANYA?! AHAHAHAHA..
Oxa.. next time!
Drowning Mind
i dunno what exactly is running in my mind right now.. what i'm sure of now is that.. i'm doing my job everyday, answering emails for concerns and suggestions, doing reports, preparing everything for our team building.. argh! why is that all work related i'm thinking of anyways.. hehehe..
My mind is really messed up of a lot of things when i'm at the office. Actually i just finished revising our tool, and happily i also managed to finish my documentation and is ready to be sent later, to cope with a lot of changes occurring right now. What else? And now i'm doing nothing, but blogging.. (Sssshhh... which i'm not really allowed of doing here..^^)
I am always trying to keep my mind calm.. not thinking of a lot of things that will just give me a whole bunch of stress.. maybe what i need is some sort of meditation.. Which I think I've never done before.
How do you meditate? Do you know how?
They say that its a way of detaching yourself on the physical world. Being far from noise and everything that may distract your conscience.. (conscience?! am i right?!)
well anyways.. where in this place will i find a place so peaceful..?! Where'd you think? So one thing more I think I need also is a vacation! Yes! and i spelled it right! V-A-C-A-T-I-O-N-!-!-!
But having one is something that we all know is to be planned. When, Where and How Much?! Right?
but again.. how will i ever get one if the only free days i have is Sundays and Mondays!? will that be enough?!
maybe all i have to do now is take a deep breath and *sigh*
Maybe the only getaway that i'll be having now for the soonest is the activity that our team will be having this August.. our team building..^^
then on October 5.. another anime convention will take place.. i think its the GXCon.. and just a while ago.. Ukiya had informed me.. ME being one of the event staff!! yeyeye! hahahaha..
so this might be all for now..^^ try to be there also at the event on October 5 okie? ^^
And before i forget.. please vote for my blog! heheh.. a link button is already available on the top of my navibar.. thanks!
At The Shop
just dropped by here at an internet shop to open my multiply.. expecting of someone whom neil thought eh.. left some PM.. but i found nothing.. so here i am posting instead..
and yes.. i'm at a shop right now.. office became strict again on the internet usage.. tracking ip addresses that are going online doing non work related stuffs.. so there.. got myself refrained from doing my guilty acts again..:p
btw just came from shangri-la for a "lunch date" with ukiya.. hehehe.. well, we just had some talks about what's happening to the people at ozine.. on his life.. and of mine.. nothing to be jealous of really.. we just had some things to patch up because of what's happenening..
so.. that's it for now.. naiipunan nanaman ako ng gm at ako pa ang binabanatan! amf!
til next post! :3
The Conclusion
after being "borrowed", i am now, i think, an official member of that team.. i don't think that i will still be given back to the team i was in before..
i had a conversation to both managers and settled things about the "transfer" to be done.. considering all the factors.. i am now a member of this "other" team that i'm in.
Question is, is it against your will or not?
a question that came from daddeh nels commented on my previous post..
i was asked by my "former" manager if it's fine with me to be transferred.. since i am the one holding the decision on that.. any answer that i will give will just be fine on both sides..
so i explained to my "former" manager my point of views on both if's.. 1) if i will transfer. 2) if i will come back.
and so i ended up transferring to this "other" team.. telling my "former" manager that i can be more useful for the "other" team in terms of manpower.. and one more thing that my "former" manager told me was we are all reaching for the same goal so that wouldn't matter if in which team i will be part of..
so you don't want to be with that group?
Another question from Rozeh..
Its not like i don't want to be part of the "other" team.. coz i'm actually thinking more on how i can help this team.. but asking me if i don't want here..? Actually.. i like it here..^^ task-wise.. i'm busier here.. and its better than doing nothing.. and getting along with the whole team was just so smooth..
so this one is now settled..^^
Borrowed
yes.. i'm now being borrowed by the other team to help.. i am now actually sitted with their group here on the 6th floor..
so.. that's it.. i dunno how long i will stay here.. or baka dito na talaga ako mapepermanent...
so this is it for na na muna..
Where do i belong..
I'm on the middle of the crossroad again.. thinking if i should or should not be a part of another team leaving the team that i am in now..
the other team don't have the enough number of people yet.. and that made its manager to ask to some of the categories if there can be a possibility to have one from them.. since my team have me as a plus because of what i know about what is to be done on some of the fields at work.. i can say that.. we have more people than what is to be the only number of members a team should have.. so the other team's manager asked my manager if there could be one from us be transferred to them.. i am expecting now that my manager will ask us about that but what i knew was.. my manager told the other team's manager that no one likes to be transferred anymore..
hey hey hey.. i know that you are my manager and that act may just be of your own discretion to keep your people but.. is that proper to tell the other team's manager that without us being consulted?!
my goodness!
i learned that the other team only have one or two(?) on pricing.. and only one doing both the merchandising and vending job..
did you ever took time to look at what their situation is right now?! they lack people and do you think they can operate as like how our team is doing now?
my gawd!
are these people just being so selfish?!
on my case.. i'm the only person here in our category who can be transferred to other teams.. with consent of course from our manager.. why? we already have 3 notes.. 3 pricing.. 1 for merchandising.. 1 for vending and an image guy.. with our trainer of course.. so see? we are just so complete.. added me as the plus!
options for my transfer would be, 1) to the new to be planned application extension's team 2) to the other team.
i know i can do better if i'm going to be handling the applications.. but since we will be on a hands off mode for application.. WHAT THE HELL AM I TO DO NOW?! KNOWING THAT I'M HERE FOR THAT PURPOSE!
i still don't know what plans they have for me now that they removed the applications task on the categories.. wherein actually it shouldn't be a task of the category process..
haay.. now that i have nothing to do.. what am i going to do now???
Twisted Fate: The Appeal!
yes.. i think.. and all of us think that she made an appeal about what happened..
What happened now is.. the subordinate and the second in command will be on the same level na.. meaning.. both of them will be having another superior whom i think.. the catalog manager..
From RashidOnline Blog Pics
well anyways.. puro nalang issue wala ng katapusang isue.. i've been seeing this little baby colored creatures lately.. being sold madalas sa mga bata.. nakakaawa lang kasi.. imbes na maging chicken joy sila pag laki.. ginagawa lang silang toy ng mga kids! then in the end.. mamamatay lang kasi lamog na sa kakalaro.. and imagine.. whenever you buy one.. you'll also be given a small cage for the chick.. so small that it is only fitted to that small baby chick.. my gawd talaga.. kabawasan sa chicken joy ang ginagawa ng mga nagbebenta nun! asan ba ang mga organization ng animal rights! hindi ba nila napupuna yan?? eh kung sila kaya ang kulayan.. at ibenta gawing toy.. kamusta naman sila nun?! dba?
Twisted Fate the Aftermath
Remember my post entitled Twisted Fate?
I think i need to make my post links visible.. for easy navigation.. right?
well anyways.. she dropped a level lower.. and gee.. she's the only one i knew who was.. err.. demoted?!
yeah.. suddenly.. that thing called karma did something really amazing! so amazing.. and now look at her.. after hearing all of those rumors she made to her neighbors, she.. being a team leader.. (well that's true.. BEFORE! but now.. i dont think so.. not anymore!) and a manager?! (Did she became one?! WHEN??!) O.o where is she now?! dropped down to being a second in command to her subordinate..
To a subordinate whom i think is more capable of handling the position which the second in command is so boasting upon that she was getting better at.. but did she ever remembered anything from her previous work?! kung evaluation rin lang taob sya nung subordinate kung entering of items rin lang ang babasihan! Then still someone is going to tell pa na mas matibay ang second in command sa subordinate?! huwag ka sanang bitter.. tanggapin nalang ang katotohanan na minsan sa buhay natin.. mangyayari ang ganitong pangyayari..
What's good about the subordinate is.. she went into the process of being a simple data analyst with a very good impression on her work.. then became a checker.. then was the ONLY ONE assigned to handle all the SKUs for POS management then now was put to lead the POS team.. in comparison to the second in command.. from being a simple data analyst.. with an i don't know about the work done.. just suddenly became the team leader of the POS team.. the only thing she has that time was her long length of stay with the company..and this might be the reason of her being the appointed person for that position.. but.. was her skills ever evaluated? if she can really manage to handle a team with a so so complicated tasks?! NO.
Now.. transtition is occuring to the said team.. How will she accept everything now that her subordinate before is now her supervisor? Will she step down from her high chair and let her subordinate take her place? Will there still be a chance for the other someone to stay long on this company the next time he get himself in trouble? now that the only person he's looking up to is not anymore holding the powers of doing the pananakip? Will they make a lot of batikos sa pagkakaroon ng bagong sup? Will she make an appeal of getting back to that position? will they use the word "unfair" against to the new head knowing that the team is literally on its 2 on 2 sides?!
there are really a lot of questions.. na parang telenobela lang na ating aabangan.. so let's just wait for what will happen next..
anyways!
From RashidOnline Blog Pics
Every morning that i see these children.. with their mother.. sleeping on the side of the streets.. *sigh* and now look at them.. only have food in a plastic for breakfast.. is there any way for this be avoided in our place? in our country?! hey government! wassap!!
btw.. i have a Multiply account! pls do visit it too..^^ this will be whispered on the other side.. the way more outrageous side of me..:D
i'm really busy right now doing these application task.. so this will end here.. for now.. :D
Emo
I might just was bored on my last post.. reason for me to write that up on my last part of the entry.. anyways.. i'm quite busy now.. and can't think of anything like that now..
had now my updates.. and take note.. double the updates coz from version 08-02 last week.. its now 08-04.. (wth i'm talkin about?! O.o) Ahh.. Repairmate version..
So.. got myself stucked at home these weekend.. got online for about twice.. just to check the dorm..
and back at home.. i decided to wash the clothes and clean the floor.. i'm just so wanting to be doing something that time.. i even threw garbages! and that only can happen once in a red moon! ahahaha.. parang lobo lang.. pulang buwan!
i even thought of a lot of some things.. but i would just rather not talk about it here.. maybe on my next post.. i just have to reconstruct the thoughts that was on my mind that time..
and anyways.. its almost time to go home.. hehe..
so.. be it!
Other Meaning
i was on my way home when this kid went up on the jeepney that i was in.. holidng this white envelope with this written on it..
kaunting tulong lang po para sa pagkain at damit naming magkakapatid..
the envelope was suppose to be used for asking some help.. some financial help.. and it is given to all who are in that ride. some will give, some didn't..
and i am one of those who didn't gave..
i dunno.. i do give alms before.. before when i still haven't know that the kids that i was helping was only using the money that to buy... rugby.. so that was it.. after knowing.. i didn't ever gave anything to anyone like them anymore.. haay.. i might turn bad coz of that but.. i don't want them to use my help to ruin their lives.. T_T
anyways.. if these kids are really so helpless.. why don't they volunteer theirselves to dswd.. dba? nang sa ganun.. mapaayos sila.. and siguro naman tatanggapin sila ng ahensyang yun kasi nga yun ang dapat na ginagawa nila..
then.. at home.. i was really friggin starving.. and there's nothing available to eat.. i mean.. no ready to eat food is available on the table.. on the fridge.. or anywhere at home.. waah.. so what i did was.. yeah.. coocked 2 lucky me pancit canton.. i still have to wait almost 10 mins to prepare it.. then got some slice of bread.. chocolate spread.. and a pitcher of sweet ponkan.. haay..
and that was really the real meaning of life.. to eat after the loooong time of being starving! hahahaha.. *burp* yummy yum yum! ^^;;
anyways.. its the end of the week for me! and haay.. i want to go out this weekend.. but where.. with whom.. waah.. hmm.. i need to be online this weekend to be on track on what's happening to our dorm at ozine! hehe.. *thinks*
btw.. i don't know how to feel.. i was been with this team for.. err.. 3 weeks now.. but still i haven't still got the time to have jamming with them.. there happened to have two occasions.. simple ones.. inuman.. parang ganun.. but then.. i haven't been able to be with the group coz i was been with ate kris' company by those times..
i dunno.. i'm sitting still with the team that i used to be part of.. far from where my whole team is.. maybe.. its the reason why i feel this way..
its strange coz i feel that i'm err.. being left out?! that i'm just an add up in this team.. feeling like.. i'm not that important for the team.. waa.. my self esteem is starting to tear off.. i feel useless.. hmm.. i know that i shouldn't be thinking this way but.. hmm.. somehow.. dba? i'm doing different task.. purely applications.. another reason why i'm not with the most meeting that they are having.. but.. waah.. if there's no updates.. what am i suppose to do!? haaay.. its freakin killing me out..
now i'm gathering applications of the top revenued skus.. just to kill the time.. haay..
anyways.. where's my requested extra monitor by the way.. gawd......
I Need Air
Yesterday was a full blast of stress.. and i really need some air.. *sigh*
btw. i had already put a strikethrough on my previous post. i thought of deleting it.. but i didn't.. this is my blog.. my rant place mixed with lots of emotions.. so just to make it more of a personal blog.. putting the strikethrough will just be perfect.
i want to post some pics so badly.. but i hardly can't.. T_T this is getting so dull and boring..
uhmm.. let me think.. (again.. another stress contribution.. amf!)
the eeepc that i am talking about which was left at home by ate lou for me.. or gid to buy.. is merely on its idle state started when the wifi connection went down..
now.. what's inside the buble thought is.. should i be the one to buy that..? well of course it will be an additional arrangement for my budget.. but still i've been thinking.. if i am the one to be paying that.. hmm.. should i be starting now to look for an internet connection?!
globe is offering.. i don't know if they are still.. the eeepc plus the connection promo.. maybe i should be checking that out too..
i'm not into the online games right now.. (so busy for those things..) i'm more of the.. update my blog/upload my pics/learn more on this page ranks/SEO stuff (which I will be talking about later..)/watch anime/download Anime mp3s.. so i think.. eeepc just suits me well.. uhmm.. it is just minus the layout making.. x_X but then.. its linux based.. X_x (i'm thinking of installing windows in it rather than having it on linux..)
btw. the prepaid plug it of smart bro is not compatible with my eeepc which is in a linux environment.. so smart bro for now.. is not an option..
pldt's my dsl is.. as what i heard.. is taking the applicants so long before they are actually be approved for a line.. but still i'll try..
now.. talking about the page rank stuff.. my google page rank now turned to 0/10 which actually is unranked before.. what i don't know is.. is it now stucked on 0/10 or will it increase in time..? haay.. maybe.. i think so.. but not that quite sure.. or.. the more people link me.. the higher it gets.. is that like that?!
f*Ck!
wth are their problem?! these are my files.. those are my shots.. and those are my freakin property! who are they to delete those!?
fuck! yeah.. and i really mean it.. i hate it when people want to see my phone.. watch taken videos, pictures and stuff then suddenly they'll just take it off.. delete and give it back! damn them!
i am really mad.. yeah.. fuckin mad!! as if i care to the level of giving that fuckin video to the world! shit!
AND THIS IS REALLY MY UNCENSORED POST!
i don't care about the words i'm using now..
just don't dare doin that again.. or.. err... as if i'm still to use my phone on you! duhh..
i'm so fuckin pissed off!
well nweiz.. for some updates..
i've put the announcements on the side bar.. along with the new Blog Check Section.. so.. that's it!
When Boredom Strikes 2
I'm Bored.. I'm sleepy.. I want to go to bed.. my eyes are rolling.. seeing twice the image.. waaaah.. i hate it when boredom strikes!
the wifi connection really didn't shown up anymore.. even a single 60% is nowhere to be found now. so what i'm using now is? my mobile phone.. i downloaded this opera mini.. and there i was able to go back online.. but this was just only good for surfing.. blogging is done the other way though.. with picture blogging of course..
i wanna post some pictures here though but USB connection is not allowed at the office.. >.< we had swimming yesterday at Ate Krissy's Condo.. and that might be the start of our weekly routine.. huwahahaha.. i just might post some of the pics here soon..
now i'm thinking.. should i now be making a new page for my pictures? hahaha.. hmmmmmmmm..... i really can't handle my pictures though.. i started up multiply but can't manage to fix it up.. had friendster but.. err.. i don't wanna use my phone be connected on a computer in an internet shop just to upload my pix.. waah.. too vulnerable for attacks! hahaha..
haay.. i still have nothing to do.. still waiting for the access.. so.. that's it..
by the way i have another Blog Check! its DeeJay!! Better Check it Out! ^_^
Good Morning Sunshine!
i do now wake up not seeing stars now.. but the sun.. (hmm.. sun is also a star.. but.. whatever! hahaha!)
yes.. my daily routine just got normal.. hehe.. i'm on a morning shift now and was been taken to be a part of a category.
what's nice is.. a now have the time to go to the malls or anywhere after shift.. hahaha.. unlike when i was at the night shift.. after work.. you will really be so sleepy that you would like to lay your back on bed as soon as you got home.. hehe..
but then.. i think i'm having little sleep now.. unlike before that i am having a lot of sleep.. hahaha.. why? now that i'm on day shift i sleep by 11 then wake up at 4.. only 5 hours.. but before.. i will sleep by 10 and wake up at 7.. and that's a 9 hours of sleep! hahaha..see?! a lot! i think i'll be having difficulty on adjusting my body clock at first.. haay..
so.. wassap with me now? im suppose to do some more focused work now.. hehe.. more on the application part of my job.. but for now.. i'm idle.. hahaha.. still don't have the access for everything that i will be needing..
so for now.. malaking PETIKS muna ako! harharhar..
Randomness
I felt the urge of posting.
back aches. ouch..
don't get mad. i'm posting using your time.
i need some rest.
Its so boring.
Weekend without a thing to do, ow.. yeah.. to rest.
Baguio or not?
Ozine. I was there. but haven't met anyone.
Anime MP3s loudly playing in my ears.
Filling the blanks. Where will I be..
Overtime. it sux! Bills on the run!
Bracketing.. i do hope so.. When?
New business name.
At last, i'll be having my contract signed.
Expenses.. a lot!
Subic. Paid.
4th week, judgement?
Haggardness.. Ugliness.
DVD or not?
Us.. Implicitly.
Tiresome
tired with a blank mind.. but then i'm thinking of posting and let every reader if any read what i am to about to whisper.. i feel really sleepy now but i'll just make everything short..
Now I'm almost a day awake with no sleep.. Tasks on our team was given 2 weeks deadline.. and then we're off to our new teams.. yeah.. hopefully we'll be distributed and be part of a new team.. Our overtime already happened days ago which did caused me to look haggard.. i really have a lot of time to rest..
just went online now to check for emails.. then here to post..
what else.. hmm.. i'l just keep you posted as soon as i get some extra time.. and that includes my blog hops to my buddies..
so well.. have to take my rest.. i might be going back to work later.. another tiresome yet cash collecting task.. hehehe..
ja~
I Would Rather..
I was going to work when it started to rain.. and that just made me think why i now hated rain..
I used to like rain before when i was younger.. getting wet and soaked under the rain make me feel so happy but then.. everything changed when i learned that the rain that i loved before was not anymore the rain that i used to know.. It just got different.. it went violent.. destructive.. it even caused our house to get damped.. and dumped last 2006.. and that's when i started hating rain..
I was to post something this morning.. but when i was just to click the new post tab.. wifi connection went out.. and that's why i haven''t had the chance to post it up here..
so maybe i'll just have to repeat all of those stuff all over again now..
First.. i got myself dyed.. err.. i mean my hair dyed.. i have this light brown color strands on my hair.. rusty color.. hehehe..
Second.. I was to post the hot topic last night.. but.. hmm.. ok.. here it is.. What would you rather choose.. 100 million dollars or true love? mostly of the answers was getting 100 million dollars over true love.. and that happened to be my reply to the topic as well.. true love, as what i am thinking, will also be felt by sharing your love to the unfortunate and abused children and pet animals.. to the environment.. and the like.. i might just use the amount for them.. take a part also to build a foundation of my own.. i don't want to be lined up with people like the country's president because of doing that.. but.. these are just taking at heart.. i may not find true love.. but through these.. i might find happiness.. right? maybe i can just join the bachelor.. and let the show look for my true love.. hehehe.. and this of course is assumed that you are not in a relationship right now.. :p
Third.. No one from our team was selected to be part of the Intake team.. i dunno how the selection happened but somehow.. it gives me a nice deep of breath.. for I can still enjoy the over time that we are having because of our task.. ^__^
Fourth.. I was been told to reserve myself for something.. hmm.. but how? i'll think about that..
What If..
I'm decided.. since i am always listening to RX FM.. I think i'm gonna post new entries now using playtimerx's hot topics.. hehehehe..
Since.. the topic last night was all about your biggest what if.. let me remember what i replied..
What if i can change places with my dad and turn every mistake in the past be right..it may be through turning back of time or traveling back to the past only for that reason.. I might be living differently now..
and that was what i answered them..
i dunno.. whenever its all about what ifs.. that's the thing that always comes first on my mind.. thing like, i shouldn't have been carrying all of the burdens.. i shouldn't be the one giving all their needs knowing me as young as who i am now.. i shouldn't be the one acting like the head of the family as early as now.. these are just few things i blame to our father.. but well.. what else? there's nothing more that i can do to revert everything back..
anyways.. or anyhoo.. as like sister xiany is always saying.. our team leader already announced about the forming of the new team.. how i wish i can be part of that team as soon as... now? hahahaha.. but then.. we still have to pass first some interviews that will be given later by bryan.. one of the big bosses.. hmm.. i wonder what questions he will be giving us.. and i hope i can answer clearly all the things he have to ask me..
i should have a better sleep now.. to have a clear mind later.. hehehe..
but before i end up this post.. this just happened last night.. sister xiany and me talked about looking Daddy Nels a partner here on the Flirt-Wind Family! hehehe.. since me and sister xiany treat ourselves as siblings with Daddy Nels as our Dad.. we thought of having a mom as well!! hahaha.. so what might be the criteria? hahahaha.. as long as she can keep our Daddy Nels happy.. that might be it.. hehe.. anyways.. i posted a sticky up there.. where people who are interested can leave their message on the comment link that i provided.. specifically for that purpose only.. :p Or you could also visit his site. Just click his link banner on the navigation bar.. then look on how he is to you.. hehehe.. i am really excited on this search for a flirt-wind mom! haha..
so that would be it! ja~^___^
Just A Fine Fine Day..
Just a so so fine day. Nothing unussual.
I bathed our dog, Terdy when i got home.. Went online for a while.. watched Pokemon.. then got myself ready for bed..
woke up at 7PM but went out of bed by 8PM.. ate.. then go to office.. good thing i didn't came in late.. hehe..
Today just happened to be one of the usual day to day routine..
Work is another boring story to tell.. same stories about same issues arising on between people.
about our team's issue.. i don't know if its already been settled.. i don't know if what kind of negotiation happened between them and us without even knowing it.
i really have nothing much to rant about today.
I'm just waiting for some things to happen.
btw.. i've been posting Blog Checks now.. featuring blogs that i had newly added on my list..
Better drop at them as well.. :D
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